• 9th grade
    So there we are, Me and her always having fun talking to each other not afraid to say anything stupid.
    We walk together everyday like a couple, childhood buddies. I really liked her too
    She asked if I can come by and help with her homework for English. So I did, then we finished.
    She would give me a hug and say"thank you for helping me, I don't know what I would've done without you
    I'm glad we're friends."
    Deep in my mind "I wanted to tell her how i felt, how much I love her, I didn't know if she liked me." So I didn't and just said "your welcome, see you later"

    11th grade
    She calls me on the phone. Crying hysterically telling me that her Dad died. So I tried to comfort her with the best of my ability. She eventually stops sobbing and says "thank you, thanks for cheering me up. Your a good friend" and hangs up. I felt like calling her back telling her how much I love her, But i didn't know if she like me, I didn't know if i even had a chance. So I didn't.

    Graduation Day
    It was Graduation Day, and yet still loved her dearly.
    Saw all of these students getting ready to graduate High school to begin their lives. I see her wearing her orange cap & gown. And she looked gorgeous like as always. She walks up to me and says "Hey! fellow graduate, How are you? How do you feel that you graduated?" I hesitate..... And I know how I feel, I still love her just don't have the guts to say it yet, And graduating doesn't bother me I wasn't even thinking about it. So I said " I'm great, I can finally get out of this hell hole and go off to college" she says "Me too" I'm going to college in London for art. It hits me hard that I wont be able to see her for a while. So she hugs me tight and says goodbye.
    My heart is pounding as I wanted to shout out her name, and tell her how much I love her. And of course I didn't, I didn't know if she would like me back, I didn't think I had a chance. So I say "take care instead"

    Unexpected call
    She calls me unexpected to say that she's getting married in the town she was born and rise and that she's moving back too. She sounded so happy on the phone, but I wasn't. And at that moment I kept saying in my head slowly the phrase "if you love someone, you have to let them go" I didn't want to believe it, But I had too. I cant be selfish about this.And I still feel my heart is pounding and anxiously wanting to shout out her name. So I can finally pour out my feeling to her. About how I loved her so much. But I didn't know if she loved me back, I didn't know if I had a chance, I didn't even have the guts to tell her either. But I cant, I couldn't at least not anymore now.

    Wedding day
    Its the wedding day and I'm not there. I cant go in there, it'll be to painful for me to watch her walk that line towards the arms that aren't mine. So I take a walk around town and I pass by the church of where her wedding in taking place. I can hear the sounds of the piano practicing the wedding songs that is going to be played pretty soon.
    I suddenly get a phone call from her. And she asked where I was? I said " I cant make it because I'm in pain". So we both hung up and I'm right next to the church listening to the piano play the wedding theme. And as it's starting she looks out the window and sees me. I quickly wave "Hi" and walk away. She knew what was wrong because I can see it in her face through the window.

    Funeral
    Years have passed since I've heard from her And I'm 27. I've been dating many women over the years but none have seem to work out for me. I haven't found the right person for me. Well I did but she was married. I say "was" because I got a call from her mom saying that she died yesterday and that her funeral is being placed at her mom's house where I took her home everyday after school. So I'm here now and there's painting and drawing that she has all over the house because she loved drawing. So I looked around and eventually headed to her old room. And I found her diary on the floor. So I opened it up.... And I start to cry
    This is what it said......in purple ink

    Everyday my heart is pounding and anxiously

    wanting to shout out his name

    So I can finally pour out my feeling to him

    About how I loved him so much

    But I didn't know if he loved me back

    I didn't know if I had a chance

    I didn't even have the guts to tell him either

    instead everyday I would say I'm glad we're friends.

    So I didn't have to tell him my true feelings


    last page.....

    I'm still crazy about him but I cant tell him

    So i hope someday he can tell me.

    crying