• I was feeling so guilty.It was just one night that i had the best night of my life, but the next morning it was the worst.
    My best friend had forced me to go meet someone on a blind date two weeks before.I met the guy ,he was really sweet and i knew he was perfect for me.My friend made me go out with him twice a week ,and it was our fourth date when he decided he wanted to have more of me. He and i hadn't done anything really serious we just played tackle(a game for just us) and flirted a lot. He was really ready for me one saturday night,it was our eighth date over two weeks, and he started ,and i let him start but planned to stop him before he went to far. I watched him intently to see if he would do anything more than i wanted but he was perfect. Then he started to touch me soothingly.He did it almost half the night.And then he started to do what i wanted him to do, but hoped he wouldn't.I told him "lets do it next time" but he said "just come on with it i know you want it too." And i did want it ,so i let him continue. I dozed off and the next morning i found myself horrified at me. I called him up to tell him that we weren't going to it any more until we were older ,but he said that we wouldn't do it at all.He broke up with me that morning.I found myself wanting more of what he did with me. I called him up one day and told him that i wanted him back. He laughed at me and i hear him whisper " hey its your friend she says she wants me back. Lets show her how much i want her back" i heard my best friend say "but what if she reconizes me....fine come here." and then i heard sounds that i wished i'd never heard.

    i haven't spoken to either one of them since. he called me though to tell me he wanted me again and i told him "go get a doll"