• She battles with the decision, say it or forever keep it hidden. She wants to say it, she wants to let him know, but what of the consequences? Should she care what will happen? Is what she has to say so important? She thinks so, she wants to, but she learned bad things come from pressing send. She doesn't like this, he'll be just like the rest, added to the growing list of people she cannot say a word to anymore. The words are in her head, they dare to be passed over her tongue, but her lips remained sealed. Why? She remembers not so very long ago, she could tell him her world, why can't she say a word, a syllable, a sound to him? Her lips betray her, or do they save her? All the messages she never got to send, they pile up and up and reach her ceiling and it begins to crack. Why is it such a battle to press send, to let him know? Was saying 'Hello' always so hard? What will fix this? Or maybe, what will end this less painfully? In all the bitter words she's said, why can't she just say what she truly means, not out of anger or hurt, but out of what she really feels? When she finally understand what she means, what she wants, why is it now she no longer has the gaul to let him know? She doesn't want to say goodbye, not again, not to him. She wants to say hello, she wants to draw his attention, but she hides. She's sorry, she's not, she's conflicted. She wants him there to hold her, to touch her, to say something, but now she's scared to look at him. How did it get this way? She said she hated him, but she lied. But she didn't. She loves him. Hug her, hold her, say a word to her. Why can't he see her anymore? Has she disappeared? Take her, right now, save her, say a word, press send, was it truly all so very much in vain?