destroy me

• Artist: aya Fujimiya_Omi Takatori
• Description: life is great...when you have a good life. me? not so much, i basically live a secret life.
• Date: 07/31/2009
• Tags: destroy

I feel as if I’m the boy who cried wolf (even though I’m a girl). I’m only 14, but when I was younger I cried over every little thing, you know like all little kids do. And every cry my parents used to take so serious… and then… every cry was just too much. They no longer cared when I had a pain in my stomach, or my head, etc. I see that I may have complained too much, but now I feel so alone, and they don’t even care! So now I keep my physical pains… my emotional hurts…and every thought that comes to me, just all stays in my head… I’m overwhelmed…

…My grandma… she always would let me talk to her about Everything, and no amount of complaining was too much, so whenever I had a lot on my mind I’d go to her. And now that she’s gone, everything is different… for everyone… that’s why I started keeping to myself…no one to talk to… no one to love… and to love me back… so all this overwhelming pain…is…well as I said…overwhelming… and I’ve come to a point where I… I don’t even care…and i just don’t think I can stand this anymore...

Comments

[Halick]

Trust me ik how you feel even more so then you think. -_- My firends and family dont care they never really did or do or ever will, thats just life and thats that. life sucks and you know what, someone always has it worse then you. lifes been hard for me to my bf died my best friend died my new bf moving sad and other bull shat thats unfair

[Kanashii Aiyoku]

I'm sorry you feel this way. I know it's hard sometimes. There are so many times I feel as if it's all for nothing and that even though people say they love you or they care, it feels so condescending. But don't give up and reach towards tomorrow. If only for a little while at least you'll know you have your hope. I wish you luck and peace.

[Gray Shinigami]

I know how you feel, having to keep everything to yourself is hard, espcially when you want to scream your lungs out.

[Sylve]

Baby, you know that it's a lie....I know your family life is hard, I remember how hard it was for Siah, but please don't give up...there is a reason to keep caring to keep moving forward, and even though you don't see a reason now, just keep breathing, pushing through and one day you'll see how everything going on now is what made you

[aya Fujimiya_Omi Takatori]

thanks... it's all true. and i'm not sure how much longer i can stand it...trying to handle it all... but no one even cares about me anymore...so i'm not sure if i should even continue caring about myself...

[OMGaara13]

Wow. That's really powerful stuff