• Not Over you

    The fact that you I still love is true,
    Futile are my attempts to forget you.
    Cry, I would avoid if I could,
    Again. My efforts are no good.

    Your hands that I once held,
    Your shoulder where my head once rested,
    Now another’s hand they hold,
    Another’s head they support.

    Your time that I once had,
    Now is spent with some brat.
    Your smile that was once just for me,
    Now is shown to a kid not worthy.

    The day of my birth, oblivious you are,
    Though yours and mine are not very far.
    Again are we the best of friends?
    Or for the second you’re to leave me in the end?

    I was strong at first I thought,
    With the pain I endlessly fought.
    My world it seemed was falling apart,
    Being torn to pieces together with my heart.

    To bring you back I yearn,
    I then realize my heart will never learn.
    To bring you back, an impossible dream,
    To say you love me, did you really mean?

    You said you loved me.
    I thought you loved me.
    My heart and soul I gave to you,
    And this is what you do?

    My wrists I see flesh in colour,
    My wrists I wish red would devour.
    At the sharp blade I stare,
    Thinking, did you really care?

    If you actually cared I want to perceive,
    Or is it me you just wanted to deceive?
    Because my feelings you neglected,
    With desertion you are convicted.


    If I were to die,
    To my wake will you go and cry?
    Or go with her to the nearest shoe salon,
    And disappear with her until you’re gone?

    Being not over you I cannot accept,
    But now I am forever in debt.
    For you taught me that love is not that sweet,
    Making my heart skip a beat.

    To have given it my all was a mistake,
    And that I will never again make.
    To love you in silence is what I chose,
    For in silence, my love for you no one will oppose.