• I had a dream a little while ago~

    One of those rare drams when one is fully self aware. In this dream i was in a far off land of mountains and beautiful sunsets. there a met a friend and for a while i had my own personal tour of paradice...it was a dream that i didnt wish to wake from...in this word or rather..on this plain of reality life has become rather meaningless for me~i simply drift from night to day with little heed or regard towards my own life. In truth i have had two reacuring dreams for many nights now...at times i have these dreams~they seem to gear me towards to things required to be happy...to find happiness. one of course from these paradice dreams is that i need a life thats active and the other.....i shall leave it for someone to ask me^^


    I recall a old saying "born into egzistance, born into life" it means that someone has two births. one being into this world and then when one is born into life they have found a purpose by which to live..

    i have yet to find my reason for living~i suppose its impossible for someone to give me one...i must find it for myself~

    There are times when i have those dreams and in them i find true happyness~to live in a new land with a certain someone...i wish that this world was the dream..or is it trully a dream~drifting though the hours i dont really feel awake.

    so i must ask you...

    what makes men?
    what is reality?
    what is life?
    what is egzistence?
    what is a dream?
    what is death?

    i find these questions become closer to me as these dremas become deeper. For myself to become truly aware in this "dream" to feel happiness in one~to feel suffering...for me to cry when i realize my time there is ending...what is a dream really? with my life as it is now in such a dream id gladly sleep forever~even if it is a fools paradise...