• I had the worst Night ever So Around 1:04 a.m. I finished reading Eclipse and let me tell you I didn't go to bed tell 2:13 a.m. I felt so hurt and betrayed by Bella like Why did she do that to Jake That was just pure love in her eyes trying to make it easy for him and he agreed with it but I felt kinda sorry for him But then what happened Next was the worst thing ever...A nightmare!
    I awoke Crying tell my eyes were red,puffy, and drained of all there liquid my throat felt scratchy and sore I croaked my words out as I sobbed, My thoughts never left the fake characters Side lol I'm such a freak anyways....I feel sick to my stomach like I could fall over with painful loss of love I know I'm a freak for being so emotional about this stupid dream but It really gripped at my heart.
    I never felt so alone like that before, I felt every emotion like it was my own I still get tears in my eyes thinking about it.
    When the dark haze disappeared and I was sitting in a chair reading a well written letter, my russet colored hand ached when it clawed and dug into the table top as I trembled with unwanted emotions, Next thing I know I'm bolting out the door ripping my clothes from me as I take off into the woods with grief and Hatred. My body molded into that of a wolf and I could hear the wind rustle against the leaves of the tree tops as I ran so fast, everything was a blur; the earth shock beneath my paws as my panting was just as normal as it would be if I were walking, but my thoughts kept flashing the words of that simple letter and memory's of Bella through my mind like I was the one in love with her. I hated that feeling of loss and anger toward everything but mostly myself and fate.
    The last thing I remember thinking is Maybe if I run far enough away I can stay like this and never turn back.
    Thats when I awoke and started crying my little head off of my shattered body I wanted to hug this fake character haha.
    See Maybe I am A freak...sorry about this...your problems are more real than my little emotional night/day.