• the rules we live by
    to have a happy life
    dont seem to apply to me
    whatever i do
    makes everything worse
    more terrifying
    horrible
    nothing i do can make it better
    i pray and pray
    i listen to people
    i want
    to be able to be happy
    feel joy
    i havent for many many months
    ive forgotten it all
    instead of happy
    i get miserable
    im doing everything
    to make my life better
    but everything is not enough
    i must do something
    i cant go on like this
    this is hell
    this is not life
    what is then?
    look at the people
    whove done nothing but good
    look at the people
    who've helped make this world
    a great place for some
    then look at me
    ive done nothing right
    im the one people
    hate
    want dead
    to be taken off this earth
    for they do not understand
    why we would do this
    to ourselves
    to our families
    how can we be such
    disgraces
    ???????