Why do i feel this way ..... ?

• Artist: xX_iRawr_Darkness_Xx
• Description: The first poem of my portal into depression ..... the first feelings that I could ever express onto a piece of paper ...... before this i could never express the lost emotions of a confused little child ..... looking for nothing more then a way out of feelings of being taken advantage of ..... of being left alone ..... and forgotten by all those she thought were so dear to her ...... and broken promises of standing by her side through it all .... all those dear to her.... proved her words right
• Date: 06/03/2009
• Tags: feel

I feel alone....... i feel like no one cares about me....... all the care about is what they can get out of me....... i feel trapped and punished by my own emotions....... i am intertwined in so many relationships....... it seems everyone i touch gets hurt....... and everyone i get touched by hurts me....... more and more people learn about me........ less and less they like the real me........ and very soon our relationship demolishes........ and fades away into distant memories of the past ......... life as we know it is altered......... and will never be the same.......people are deceiving........ no one tells the truth anymore....... every time i find love....... it is crushed before me........ my heart has been broken so many times........ i no longer search for it........ there is no reason for my existence........ i am a waste of a body and a soul........ i am not emo......... nor gothic......... i am nothing........ and not trying 2 be anything......... i am lost and cannot be found......... i have an old soul........ and understanding far surpass my age and appearance......... i am a lost philosopher....... trying to find my way..........