• jesse:

    Babe.
    Look.
    I cut myself today.
    I just want the pain to go away.
    But not the pain from the cuts.
    No.
    I welcome that.
    The pain in my heart.
    I swear I want to rip it out.
    No.
    It’s not you.
    Don’t back away.
    Please stay.
    Don’t go.
    There’s a pain in my chest
    That suffocates me.
    I can’t breathe.
    It crushes me everyday.
    Crushes out tears that can’t stop.
    Please make it stop.
    I don’t want to hurt anymore.
    Babe.
    I did something bad.
    I stuck something sharp into my skin.
    Now I feel weird.
    But numb.
    I’m on a high.
    Things start to move
    And twist
    And turn.
    I know it’s bad
    But I like it.
    Babe.
    I’m running now.
    I want to run until my heart bursts.
    I want to run from my hideous past.
    But I run into the arms of the present.
    That scares me too.
    I go around it
    But
    There is the future.
    My future is waiting
    To swallow me up.
    Babe.
    I’m scared.
    I don’t know what to do.
    I don’t want to look back
    But I don’t want to look forward either.
    If I just shut my eyes tight
    Will you guide me?
    Will you take my hand in yours
    And pull me
    Help me
    Guide me
    To whatever awaits me.
    I don’t want to go by myself.
    I’m afraid.
    I feel so alone.
    So frightened
    Like a lost child.
    Promise you won’t go.
    Babe.
    Please hold me.
    Hold me in your arms
    And don’t let go.
    If I drift off to slumber
    Please let me sleep
    And protect me from my dreams.
    Chase away my nightmares
    And all the evil things
    That lurk in the dark corners
    Of my mind.
    Babe.
    I love you.
    Don’t ever forget that.
    Please.
    Just remember.

    me:
    i promise to guide you... through everything you do.
    help you chase away your scary dreams... and mend your heart
    i promise to hold you tightly and never let go...
    to love you forever... im letting you know...
    ill never leave... unless you leave first.
    ill run with you to a place in my dreams...
    i promise to never let your heart burst...and let you go alone.
    ill guide you to a light... and never let you go...
    i promise to go with you... through everything.
    ill hold your hand... and never let you fall
    ill pick up the peices... and ill run into your arms...
    and tell you i love you.
    ill take away the cuts...and the pain and the break the needle...
    and inject you into my viens... because your my medicine...
    my oxygen...
    my brand of heroine.