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I tried so hard to hold on.
Each day I came with an open smile,
An open heart.
But for what?
Each day I thought I would try again:
A new day,
A new start,
A new light,
A new smile.
But for what?
Each day I try to be a part of things:
Part of conversation,
Part of laughter,
Part of friendship.
But for what?
Friendship seems to have resolved itself…
Without me.
Once again I am the Invisible
But that’s okay, I guess
I’m used to being invisible.
Don’t worry about me,
Just go about your lives like normal.
I’ll be okay.
I can see that you’re fine without me.
Actually, I can see that you’re better off without me.
Oh, no,
I don’t hate you!
No, no,
Why would you ask that?
I’m fine!
I’m fine…
I’m…fine…
I’m fine that you won’t talk to me,
Not unless I talk to you first.
I’m fine that we can no longer smile and laugh.
I’m fine being excluded,
Not being asked to come along
Being taken for granted
You either expect me to just come-
Or you don’t want me to come at all
And you’re just too - polite - to say anything.
I don’t mind.
You know, the sadness eventually fades
That’s when I don’t feel anymore.
But I’ll smile
And pretend everything is okay
I’m a strong girl,
I’ll mend, even though I’m broken
I’ve made my effort,
I’ve tried to keep things together…
But look at where it’s gotten me
I got nothing,
Nothing at all.
Only hurt and more pain,
Only sharp words,
Only…
This is the answer I have come to;
This is my conclusion:
So,
I think I will slowly fade away
Until I am not even a distant memory.
I will fade out
Because I am invisible.
I will disappear,
And you will lead your normal life,
While I go and make
A new beginning.
- by Little-Lenah |
- Poetry And Lyrics
- | Submitted on 07/24/2009 |
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- Title: A New Beginning
- Artist: Little-Lenah
- Description: I was kind of down for a while. A lot of my poems are about or around the time in my life when everything was going wrong. I tried to make things right, but nothing worked. So I thought maybe it would be a good idea to leave...and I kind of did =)
- Date: 07/24/2009
- Tags: beginning friendship leave wrong mend
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Comments (4 Comments)
- Little-Lenah - 07/25/2009
- Lol! It wasn't a problem with being popular. My friends and I were fighting and I was being pushed away. But like I said, its all good now! smile
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- exxxseada - 07/25/2009
- yeah you got to believe that you can be a popular! you need some more self confidence! wink
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- Little-Lenah - 07/25/2009
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Thank you ^_^
I wrote this several months ago, but I am feeling a lot better. Everything has mended now and my life is a lot happier =) - Report As Spam
- ~Shadey Sam~ - 07/24/2009
- wow, if you need or want a friend you can always talk to me!! this was amazing though.
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