• Lost in the thought of what I once was,
    I don't know why I did what I did, no one does!
    Who am I? Can anybody tell me?
    I can't tell the difference anymore, who am I truly?

    I'm in pain all the time and I don't know why,
    Even when I'm happy, on the inside I cry.
    I try to make myself happy anyway I can,
    Telling myself, "Theres no reason to be sad." And still...I am!

    ******** who I used to be and ******** who I am now,
    I used to be sad and angry all the time, no matter who was around.
    Now I try to hold everything in, and be nice to everybody,
    And yet I'm treated the same just how I used to be.

    I can feel the pain rising, I'm near the breaking point,
    I can hardly control my actions anymore, I can't control the joints.
    ******** can I do to make myself better?
    No one can help me anymore, I'm sick, here under the weather.

    Theres gotta be some way, some way to destroy,
    The pain and selfish intent, Nah its null and void!!!
    Unknown: "Give up the past Richard, The past is past."
    Me: "How could you all rid yourselves of it so fast?"

    Unknown: "There's no point in remembering what hurts you!"
    Me: "And yet I remember everything...Extinguish the truth...PLEASE!!!!!!
    So I'm going to ask again cause I really need an answer...
    Am I the smile you see everyday, or am I the frown that hides behind your face?