• thoughts bubbling in my head on my mind
    evaporating before they solidify into any serious thought
    a whim and glance at my life reveals that im lost
    in a sea of well you probaly wouldnt know
    thinking hurting mind racing yet blank as i struggle for control over emotions that rage and then implode inwardly leaving me hurt and hollow but smiling at the world which doesnt care
    not knowing what i like or what to do just going along for the ride in hopes of finding approval in groups trying to merge myself into a clan or form my own without the proper resources to establish myself
    ********(sigh)**********
    this emptiness in my chest is worst than any pain that is felt as i struggle for words to describe how i feel
    but the emptiness consumes the words and loses them in the abyss of hurt and pain in my brain driven and over worked like a slave trying to rationilize the pain that i feel at each moment only masked by the illusion of joy mere remnants of a life i wish to never have
    although better than this
    for to lose it the pains could suck my soul into the abyss and cradle my depression and wrap them up in fear
    torturing me with suicide that would just fleet away
    unknowing uncaring cruel world arte though to relinquish you joy
    before my eyes and take them away
    leaving me in this state how i wish that death would grace me with its sweet merciful kiss cry crying evil twisted burning_eyes