• i feel lost emotionless i feel like imeant for war. my outlet is fear and pain. music is my lifeline i have no memory of true happyness exepct my first love. but no one can love me now. i aked why be my friend what you see in me.my drive to torment. the will to kill the inside or the darkness of hate tha fill my heart. do you evan know my true nature. let me shine in my own light to show you. like a crison lotus under the moon light. i seem unnotice in skill. like a old ak tree i feel abadon. this is me my personal demon and i embrass it.do you see it cause i do when i look in the mirror.