• Alone I wait in this dark hallway. I can't Bare to look at my life any longer. All this pain and suffering I have been though, losing my family, my friends, everything. I only wish I knew what it is like to be turly happy. What it's like to feel wanted, to be loved. Even though I feel love though family, I want to know what its like to have lust, passion. But I know that will never happen. I do not deseve to be loved... Not now, not ever. I only wish I could smile again, but there is no one here to love.

    I now walk alone in this valley. I want to stay in love with my saddness, My pain, my sorrow. It is too late for me... To late for me to feel love. I don't want anyone else to share this pain with. I... I would give up my life for those I care about...even if I never met them. No one should feel the way I have. I only want them to live in happiness and in peace, but with me that can never happen. I must do this...it is my fate.

    Now here I speak before the world, ontop of a cilf, over the hungey sea, I speak to those who are wise to listen to my words... live life happily, make friends, help others, be happy...and be loved. Give love to gain love. That is what I will never learn...I am not good enough for a lover. I do not want to cause anyone any pain. not now, not ever. That is why I do this. I do not desrve to be loved...because I cannot give love... it pains me to admit this...but not for long.

    Now... I shall end this... once and for all...