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I can't say I love him, or I'm in love with him
because that implies him loving me back
but if it isn't love then what is it?
a petty crush with adrenaline times two thousand?
is that even possible?
after two years of the same gut wenching feeling
you think it would end
and you would also think it would end because
I hardly see him
with him at a different school
and living two towns from mine
you think this amazingly wretched feeling
would vanish
but every time
I hear a song he sang, see his name
or think about him in anyway
it comes back to me
I've tried running from the truth
I've tried standing tall and trying to face it
but everything I do
EVERYTHING I DO
can never keep me away from him
everywhere I go there is something to remind me of him
to remind me how a foolish mistake
made me lose the thing I want most in this world
the one thing I thought could make me escape
from all of the negative attitude, & events taking place in my life
what if I'm just being foolish
I know I can handle this negativity on my own
I've done it for 15 years
maybe it's just my lonely lost soul
looking for someone out there to relate to
maybe I would just like company
while trying to deal with all this nonsense
I feel like it's to late to even try
to even try to start all over , from the beginning
because in a couple of months
I'll be gone 5 hrs from him
& miles away
where I have to start all over
but maybe it's for the best
maybe after a year or so
I'll be able to forget about my soon to be old life
here
I really have no clue what to think anymore
if I'm not in love with him
and I don't love him
then is it just some petty crush
or have I fallen & just haven't got back up
- by x-TheWayILovedYou |
- Poetry And Lyrics
- | Submitted on 07/14/2010 |
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- Title: ILY?
- Artist: x-TheWayILovedYou
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Description:
so most of my poems and stuff have been about one guy and this is the same guy
uhmm so rate and comment and tell me what you think
I know it's not really a poem it's just sort of an expression on my feelings
so I hope you enjoy - Date: 07/14/2010
- Tags: love boys crush fallen
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Comments (1 Comments)
- SeroMathias - 12/31/2012
- Anything with feelings like this is a poem sweetheart. and in my opinion from years of writing poems..this is a very fantastic one. I hope you get the guy
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