• C.C.C.C
    Current mood:guilt
    C.C.C.C
    (Cheryl Christine Cade)


    when i walked in and they told me you died, i swear at first it felt like they lied
    it still feels like your somewhere alive
    so why cant i sleep until its five?

    it hurts but i hardly cry
    all i can do now is think back and sigh
    im not emo i swear
    even though its not fair
    that i never got to say good bye

    but big girls dont cry
    all i can do now is try
    i have to grow up now, not sometime
    i have to work hard til i shine
    and one day i will define
    that for me there is no line
    the sky is the limit
    and im in it to win it
    and ill keep shootin back up til i die
    and thats no fukkin lie

    i walk with pride
    my head held high
    cause your memories alive
    and never leaves my side
    but there are things that hide
    that i could never confide
    there are tears in my heart
    that even after will leave a mark
    like a wall hit with a dart

    ive realized some things that i havent before
    things that are special like a pearl on the shore
    you are my hero mom, a fighter no less
    you kept on fighting til your very last breathe
    you definately showed that you had the Crosby's crest
    i wish i was your comrad, fighting by your side
    instead you fought alone, always on the front line
    sometimes i feel like the battle should have been mine

    you always had it hard
    beat up, cut, and charred
    from the hell that youve been through
    the worst was always true
    but now that youve fallen
    the angels are callen
    to take away your pain, something we could never do

    but we always loved you
    even when it didnt show
    cause sometimes its hidden
    almost like its forbidden
    to realize these feelings and you feel so low
    cause its already too late
    aint it a b***h how things happen this way?


    A.C.
    8/21/62
    6/16/10
    HERO