Taeryyn
I don't get why your friend keeps trying to push the coke on you. =/ I mean, nice gesture on his part, I guess, but why's he so insistent? So that you can self-destruct and be a drugged-out idiot like him? (Sorry to make assumptions about him.)
Go to the rave, but make up your mind beforehand as to whether you're going to take E or not. It's been...hmm...four years since I last used, and I still miss it sometimes. It's fun (although coming down off it, not so much.)
Maybe stick with at least one person you know won't be using, so if you do decide to go for it, you can at least limit yourself.
No, you're right about him. He's a ******** idiot. Probably just trying to get me addicted to make a quick buck, what he doesn't realize is that I was never addicted to coke in the first place, only X.
I'm thinking I am going to the rave, It'll be something that will make me happy to get back into, whether or not I use drugs again. The problem with holding back on using the drugs more is, I loved living during the time I was using, whether I was on OR off of it. It's too much stress seeing all these other people having a great time while I'm sitting there not getting to experience. As for the bad come down, there are ways to avoid that really bad negative feeling and depression, and I always used those methods.
The people I'm meeting up with down there, I know one of them won't be using, but the person I'm going with to get down there in the first place IS going to be using, so I'm going to have to make sure to make sure to help the other people not to overdo it themselves. I dunno, I guess if I do use while there, then oh well, I've been clean for a year and that was just to prove to myself that I COULD go clean, and to see how much I like it. If I don't use, once again, oh well, I just have fun stringing and learning new moves while there.
Either way, at the very least, I know I'll have some fun at the rave hanging out with some interesting people.
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