Okay. I am finally trying an posting my problems for help.My friends all think I'm a kind, sweet little girl. But recently, I have been doing all kinds of stuff to try to stop the other stuff I have been doing all my life....
I have been stealing and I know its wrong, but its like something is taking over me and letting me listen to the earthly impulses. But I know God is watching yet I can't stop.
And then I have been taking my problems out on my friends and I can't stop myself.... sometimes when I begin fighting I find myself being restrained by a friend to hit from hitting them.
And nobody really trusts me anymore because of how I have been acting. But on top of that, I don't even fit in. I even start screaming at the popular people and saying all kinds of awful things...And the shy ones I scare when I scream at them.
And I lie without thinking. I lie about stuff I have done, TO stay out of trouble. That sort of deal...
I sometimes feel like I am an out cast because I prefer to sit in the corner and think. And not good thoughts. Vain thoughts, Greedy thoughts, thoughts on killing...I don't want to be like this
And online I find myself looking at messed up stuff...and I know I should report it but I cant
And I spend nights tossing and turning and crying Because I know I was wrong to act this way. I'm beginning to fall apart. Can someone give me advice?
I have been stealing and I know its wrong, but its like something is taking over me and letting me listen to the earthly impulses. But I know God is watching yet I can't stop.
And then I have been taking my problems out on my friends and I can't stop myself.... sometimes when I begin fighting I find myself being restrained by a friend to hit from hitting them.
And nobody really trusts me anymore because of how I have been acting. But on top of that, I don't even fit in. I even start screaming at the popular people and saying all kinds of awful things...And the shy ones I scare when I scream at them.
And I lie without thinking. I lie about stuff I have done, TO stay out of trouble. That sort of deal...
I sometimes feel like I am an out cast because I prefer to sit in the corner and think. And not good thoughts. Vain thoughts, Greedy thoughts, thoughts on killing...I don't want to be like this
And online I find myself looking at messed up stuff...and I know I should report it but I cant
And I spend nights tossing and turning and crying Because I know I was wrong to act this way. I'm beginning to fall apart. Can someone give me advice?