so...the other day I was at my closest guy friends house, we were in his room, in the dark, cuddling/kissing and stuff cause we have this strange friends with benefits thing going on, because we can never be together as more than friends for these three reasons 1. he ex is going to have his child soon 2. my friends don't like him 3. my mom would never let me date him
now we were laying in his bed, in the dark, just cuddling and talking for a long while, and at one point he pulled me closer to him and whispered in my ear, (exact wording, cause I remember it clearly..) "I don't know how you feel, but I kinda love you" now for the longest time I have had feelings for him, but have tried to ignore them cause I know we can't be more than friends, and I know if we ever are I'll just end up getting hurt, but when he said that, I just wanted to say back "I love you too" but I couldn't, and I just said nothing...
now the problem pretty much is, I do really really really like him, but I don't want to, I just want to be friends, and only think of him as a friend, and he will randomly ask me how I feel about him, and how he thinks I love him, and I kinda do, but I don't want to admit it, to anyone, especially him, because if I admit it then I am pretty much submitting myself to get hurt again, and yeah, but I feel bad not telling him how I feel
so what do I do? tell him how I feel, or keep it to myself?
he's told me how he feels tons of times, so the problem is not in not knowing how he feels...the problem is how I can't bring myself to admit my feelings... gonk
even in admitting my feelings, we can't be together, no matter what, so yeah...
before he has said stuff before like "you know you love me" and I still can't just admit it and say "yes" I usually just say "sure" in a slightly sarcastic tone...
blah...help please?
edit - he's 18 & I'm 16 3nodding his birthday is in June and mine is in September, so it's not as large of a difference as it seems...
UPDATE- Today (July 4th) he called to tell me he got in a car accident...not a real bad one...he's perfectly fine..but, could it be a sign or something for me to tell him before it's too late...?
now we were laying in his bed, in the dark, just cuddling and talking for a long while, and at one point he pulled me closer to him and whispered in my ear, (exact wording, cause I remember it clearly..) "I don't know how you feel, but I kinda love you" now for the longest time I have had feelings for him, but have tried to ignore them cause I know we can't be more than friends, and I know if we ever are I'll just end up getting hurt, but when he said that, I just wanted to say back "I love you too" but I couldn't, and I just said nothing...
now the problem pretty much is, I do really really really like him, but I don't want to, I just want to be friends, and only think of him as a friend, and he will randomly ask me how I feel about him, and how he thinks I love him, and I kinda do, but I don't want to admit it, to anyone, especially him, because if I admit it then I am pretty much submitting myself to get hurt again, and yeah, but I feel bad not telling him how I feel
so what do I do? tell him how I feel, or keep it to myself?
he's told me how he feels tons of times, so the problem is not in not knowing how he feels...the problem is how I can't bring myself to admit my feelings... gonk
even in admitting my feelings, we can't be together, no matter what, so yeah...
before he has said stuff before like "you know you love me" and I still can't just admit it and say "yes" I usually just say "sure" in a slightly sarcastic tone...
blah...help please?
edit - he's 18 & I'm 16 3nodding his birthday is in June and mine is in September, so it's not as large of a difference as it seems...
UPDATE- Today (July 4th) he called to tell me he got in a car accident...not a real bad one...he's perfectly fine..but, could it be a sign or something for me to tell him before it's too late...?
SmILe
Okay, so the other day (the 21st of July) he snuck over my house at night again, we were at the end of my driveway, and it was really late, like after midnight, and yeah, he came over around...11, and left around 1:30, so we were talking, he kissed me a few times, and at one point, we were sitting on the ground, and I was sitting on his lap, and I was thinking, and I said to him "I'm stupid" and he was like..."why?" and I said "cause I am" and he said "why?" and I was like "because...I love you" and his response was "well, then I guess I'm stupid too"
obviously meaning that he loves me too
it was kinda cute I guess...but yeah....now I am pretty much scared...I don't know why, or of what exactly, I'm just scared of getting hurt...I think...
help me please?