Birthday: Feb. 15Here's a sonnet I wrote today. Screenshotted and watermarked due to my extreme paranoia.
And here's a wee poem regarding my recent diagnosis... It's horribly introspective and emo but whatever.
I am not a failure.A lifetime
of missed instructions
forgotten missions
false starts and lost endings
of chaos and defeat
of missed appointments
forgotten reminders
false friends and lost memories
of lather, rinse, repeat
of missed assignments
forgotten deadlines
false impressions and lost marks
of squirming in my seat
"If only you'd apply yourself,"
they tell me, and
"You just need to make yourself do it, really."
"You've got so much potential, if only you were more motivated!"
All they see is how bright I am
how far I can go
no one sees how hard I struggle
I'm not a disaster on purpose --
I want to succeed.
And now
finally
someone hears me
finally
a name and a reason for the chaos and the tears
finally
stories of other people
whose stories sound like my own
finally
maybe now I can learn how to live
rather than merely struggling to exist
finally
I know I have ADHD
This explains everything.
(Nov 2/08 )
... in case anyone cares...