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Posted: Wed Nov 05, 2008 11:40 pm
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Posted: Wed Nov 05, 2008 11:59 pm
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Jafthasleftthebuilding Vice Captain
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Posted: Thu Nov 06, 2008 12:11 am
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Posted: Thu Nov 06, 2008 12:23 am
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Jafthasleftthebuilding Vice Captain
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Posted: Fri Nov 07, 2008 8:55 pm
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Posted: Sat Nov 08, 2008 1:38 am
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Jafthasleftthebuilding Vice Captain
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Posted: Sat Nov 08, 2008 11:37 pm
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I've finally talked with someone professional about my problems. They have suggested that I break contact from my parents (or, at least, my mom) as soon as I can and keep it off until I'm healthy again. However, it sort of presents a conundrum that I'm already dealing with.
Firstly, I have no resources anymore. I have my laptop that I use for work and information purposes (because you're really really screwed now, as I noticed, without some access to the Internet), my Newton, and a duffel bag of clothes on my person and I'm debating about getting the rest of my stuff from my house. I'm still struggling to find another job to complement my less-than-part-time job right now (though at the moment I'm hopeful again). In addition, I'm getting bill calls and it's so annoying because though it is my problem and I know I have to fix it, I just can't on my own. I'm lucky enough to have friends who have offered me a roof over my head and food when the 20 USD I spend on food about every two weeks isn't enough.
The counselors have been saying that I should really really really take small little steps, but I have such a hard time doing that since -- since forever -- my view of the world has always been big picture. It's difficult for me to just concentrate on what I need when I know, relatively, other people suffer more. It's weird.
Right now I'm just uber uber stressed. Not only with life and money and... well... love. I sort of have feelings for someone, but I will not say it is love. I'd like it to be love, but I'm not sure it is. And I'm scared of it because I've already fell in love once -- and I still love him now. But this is someone close, someone who is just approachable and seems supportive and funny. And I really want to give him a shot, if he wasn't so mix-messaging me. Oft-the-time I just wanted to yell at him to stop playing with what I'm feeling because I feel I'm actually starting to consider him as someone more than a friend and someone I'd like to be with, but because he confuses me so much if he likes only girls or both I'm not sure what to do.
Life is a mess... But... I guess I'm glad I have one step in the right direction. I just want things to be fixed... I want to feel less stressed, and, for once in such a long time, I just want to feel sane and happy.
(On some good news, I've applied for H&M, Starbucks, Caribou, Hot Topic, and a Law Firm. Hopefully one of them will reply -- especially the law firm, where I'd be essentially an office assistant/data entry person.)
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Posted: Sun Nov 09, 2008 12:01 am
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Posted: Sun Nov 09, 2008 12:08 am
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Posted: Sun Nov 09, 2008 10:20 am
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Posted: Sun Nov 09, 2008 10:57 am
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Posted: Sun Nov 09, 2008 1:23 pm
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Jafthasleftthebuilding Vice Captain
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Posted: Sun Nov 09, 2008 3:22 pm
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Posted: Thu Nov 20, 2008 1:54 am
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Posted: Thu Nov 20, 2008 12:28 pm
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