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My post times are all accurate. Must just be your computers clock or your setting somewhere...

Not bad though, getting a decent computer for 500 is a pretty good deal. Soooo, what do you plan on using it for? Games? General internet surfing? Work? Porn?

Well, that's not what I meant... Haha, sorry if you thought it was or something.

Oh well, I'm just a loser/Nerd/Geek with mostly just online friends, so like... It's understand that you may not know something about computers. Seriously, I spend like... 14 - 18 hours a day on my computer... So I have no social life other than here and on MSN / AIM / WoW / MUDs...

Stepping away for a bit thought to fill out some Medical paper work stuffs, and food stamp stuffs for the DHS office. Be back later.

You know what? I'm SO ******** tempted to go to my old dealers house, get a crack rock or a s**t load of cocaine, and do it all so I have a ******** heart attack or something. I was upstairs for about 40 minutes sitting at the table with the paperwork I need for my insurance sitting in front of me, and my dumb a** mother was sitting in the other room playing a ******** ONLINE POKER TOURNAMENT! Apparently, she ******** prioritizes VIRTUAL ******** money over her own sons life. I wish more than anything that I have a ******** heart attack or something happens to me soon, so when the bill from the hospital ( or if I'm lucky, the bill from the funeral services ) arrive, she may be able to see that she should have HELPED ME WITH MY ******** PAPERWORK THAT I NEED HER TO FILL OUT INSTEAD OF PLAYING A RETARDED GAME OF ******** POKER WHERE NO MATTER IF SHE WINS OR LOSES SHE STILL DOESN'T GET ANY ******** MONEY.

Seriously. I have 2 ******** broken ribs that have healed wrong and are weak and prone to breaking again very easily. I've got bone on bone contact in both my knees, AND my left ankle. My right ankle is ******** up, and I have a nerve out of place or something, because it hurts like a b***h if I try to move my foot in any direction other than up and down. Hip problems have been rampant since my accident last year, where there are sometimes periods of 2 - 3 days where I'm incapable of ******** walking more then 10 feet without collapsing in pain. I've had heart problems basically since ******** birth, and problems with my liver and kidneys. My bone marrow generates too many platelets, which makes my ******** blood too thick for my damaged heart to pump without straining itself. Then I have my right shoulder, or I should say what once WAS my right shoulder, and is now nothing more than a slant from the cartilage and bone shifting. And finally, my back, which has been ******** up for years, and is only getting worse...

Seriously? AM I THE ONLY ******** PERSON THAT SEES THAT I NEED THIS ******** HEALTH CARE? HOW THE HELL CAN THE ENTIRE FAMILY BE SO ******** ******** it, whatever. I'm just hoping something happens to me that will bankrupt this stupid ******** family, so maybe then when they're bitching about it I can just bring up "You know, you've only yourselves to blame, because you NEVER helped me fill out my paperwork that would have saved us in this situation." Jeez... I feel like putting my ******** gun in my mouth and pulling the ******** trigger right now. I hate dealing with these stupid people EVERY ******** day in my life, and they only make more and more stress for me to deal with. THEY are the reason that I originally did drugs. THEY are the reason that I'll be back on drugs before the end of the year. THEY are the reason that I'm planning on killing myself next year on my 21st birthday. ******** idiots....

Eh, ******** em. What I find hilarious right now is we have a gas leak in our house. It's a small one, but it's about 15 feet or less behind me ( Through a wall of course, but just around the corner if I walk through the door ) and I'm sitting here smoking. Bwahahaha, I may just kill everyone in the house at once.

Ehhh, it makes me laugh at my stupidity and the risk I'm taking while complaining about how no one will help me take care of my life... Doesn't make me too happy though.

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Also, I found my old userbar Bass made me... That DOES make me happy =3

Are you in high school? Well, either way... It needs to be done = / I guess just stick too it and hope for the best.