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 Posted: Thu Dec 04, 2008 2:17 pm
Sanzo, if I said that Iwaas trying to make you feel better about something. I don't love very many people.
Yay for happy meals! But Mcdonald's french fries are best. mrgreen
And no, Max. No cake for you! Get your own, little bro.
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Posted: Fri Dec 05, 2008 4:14 pm
To all the boys I've loved before.
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Jafthasleftthebuilding Vice Captain
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Posted: Sat Dec 06, 2008 4:56 am
To all the boys that loved me before. heart
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Posted: Sat Dec 06, 2008 8:07 am
Three more weeks until Dean comes to visit me~Nevermind. His freakin' stuck up son of a b***h store manager went and told him he couldn't take his vacation; it's a no-no week. Who the fruckin-truck cares about buying ribs for New Year's? All they want is their alcohol. Not to mention CA's going bankrupt, so why should they care about him taking vacation or not? *Grumbles.* This royally pisses me off and depresses me all at the same time.
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Posted: Sat Dec 06, 2008 2:41 pm
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Posted: Sat Dec 06, 2008 3:50 pm
Well some of you may have noticed I've been a bit depressed lately around the guild. When I'm even on that is. I can't really talk about what happened because people on here know me in real life. But there is a song which scarily portrays how I feel right now very well. The Music VideoFor the lyrics which go with the song click here. They show how I feel right now so well. And I wish a certain someone could know this is how I feel, but I guess that would be kinda mean... thats not like me. But yes, watch the music video, read the lyrics and maybe you can uinderstrand how I feel at the moment.
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Posted: Sun Dec 07, 2008 6:49 pm
To all the guys who stalk me now, before, and in the future.
I get depressed sometimes. As in, so depressed, I barely even talk to my friends, who are my life. I mean, in real life I happen to be an antisocial, rather wierd girl who doesn't talk to nayone but her friends. I'm pretty sure I feel at least partly the way you do. Hug to make you feel better? I give free hugs.
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Posted: Sun Dec 07, 2008 7:09 pm
Well it's good to see people are getting along with their partners. mrgreen
Hopefully everything keeps working out for all of you.
As for me, can't say that I have someone in my life at the moment. xd
But I guess that means more fooling around for me.
@Cold- Cheer up man, don't just look at the bad stuff going on. Look at the good side of your life.
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Posted: Sun Dec 07, 2008 7:22 pm
I'm sorry, did I mislead you? I'm not allowed to date yet. not until Febuary 23rd. Well, not in real life. She said nothing about the interent...
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Posted: Sun Dec 07, 2008 7:24 pm
What...? Is that question directed for me?
edit: Maybe I wasn't clear. I'm congratulating everyone here who is in a good relationship at the moment.
also, fooling around = going out and meeting some new people. I have no interest in starting any online relationship.
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Posted: Mon Dec 08, 2008 2:15 am
Uh, good stuff? Like what? The only thing I was happy about this week was that my internet speed went back to normal and I could continue to download more tv to watch. Yay... And then I went and made my situation worse by saying more stupid crap I shouldn't *sigh*
I swear I've become bipolar from my situation. Meh.
I know I sound like a whuiny emo kid here but I have one friend. At least one proper friend who I completely trust and am always happy to hang out with. And even then its hard becasue we live not really too far away, but far enough its weird if I went out of my way to see him everyday xd
I don't trust anyone else I know, or thought were my friends enough to be friends with them anymore. I go to work 5 days a week and am basically on the compputer the rest of the time. That's why I've been looking at clubs or something I can join so I can meet new people. Because right now I don't really have anyone... I mean, I look at Christmas and I am thinking who I need to buy presents for and all there is is a couple of family members and that one friend. So I decided I'm going to give some money to charity becasue I bascially have no one to spend it on.
Gawd... I'm rambling on and on again, I'm pathetic. Why is my life so crap... Especially around christmas. At least I can see why some guys are assholes towards women, they may have used to be nice but they just get kicked in the guts for it and after a while they just don't bother anymore. I don't want to become that... crying emo
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Posted: Mon Dec 08, 2008 5:09 am
Depression has a tendency to do that: Bring you up and throw you back down again. It happens. <:3
All I can offer is that you hurry and get yourself out of your little situation before it gets worse. Keep being depressed, you'll eventually get sick and then I'll really be on your a** for pitying yourself with comments like, "I'm so depressed~" Recite to yourself you're going to be better or when people ask how you are, say you're getting better, that you're feeling better than whenever. It definitely helps. heart
@Brunsy: whee I'd say Arc and I are doing wonderfully. Even though we're not in reaching distance as of yet, that's not stopping him from dropping sexual anticipations EVERYWHERE. *Shrugs.* I enjoy having the conversations with him. He even mentioned marriage and even if he was joking via text, I was flustered beyond anything.
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Posted: Mon Dec 08, 2008 5:26 am
Thanks for your wrods Chex, but I don't really know how to solve my problem. The cause of it all is still there, and is probably not going anywhere quickly. It's hard to explain without explaining >.< but yeah, some people have done some hurtful things and so have I. I think I'm more upset with myself now than the others, but I'm also upset at just how much my life is messed up right now. I just feel so alone. emo *emo moment*
I was really scared the other night when the issue reached its peak and for the first time in my life I seriously considered suicide... Man that was scary. I had no idea how I would ahve done it or aynthing, I was just gonna walk out of my house and do something. I mean I even picked up my phone to ring somoen to talk to and I looked at the lack of numbers to call before finalyl ringing one of the ony two people I can really talk to anymore and he quite easily talked me out of it. Man that was scary. But I'm past that now I think. I don't htink I'd be able to do it anyway, I'm too much of a p***y.
How did this go from a thanks for your words Chex to another cry? Ergh... I'm so lame. Thanks again Chex. *slaps face* Get it together!
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Posted: Mon Dec 08, 2008 8:50 am
I was meerly trying nto to miaslead you my friend. sweatdrop Life sucks and then you die...
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Posted: Tue Dec 09, 2008 5:18 am
The general assumption about suicide is that it's bad, that it's something cowards do. In a time of a warped mind, suicide can look pretty delicious and personally, I think people who actually commit suicide have balls. Not that I'm encouraging suicide in any way. sweatdrop
Without knowing your full situation, I can tell you, concerning the cause that's still lingering, is to not walk around it. That's the last thing you'll want to do because every time you pass by it, you'll notice it and be reminded why it was there to begin with. Pick it up and move it out of your way.
Better yet, throw it out of the picture. It seems it's a heafty part of your life; life itself is to get over obstacles that are damaging your way of living.
Furthermore, you just went into another pity puddle. Along with telling yourself to get better, don't slip into saying, "Oh, there's no one there for me," or "What do I do?" Generating those feelings of loss or handling of the situation is just going to push you back to where you were to begin with.
*Grabs his shoulders.* GET BETTER! scream heart
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