⎾ MOROSIS ⏌

[Pure Acid Dreamer]

Jakob couldn't blame Abel for being so impulsive. There was no telling what Kieran would have done if he allowed him into his apartment. He didn't want to think about that though. He knew it was probably for the best that they never see one another again, and yet he felt he ought to talk to him at least once more. Just to answer his questions and give their relationship some proper closure. He didn't even know if Kieran would open to such a thing. When Jakob spoke, Abel's silence all but confirmed how he was feeling. It was weird to be happy that someone cared that much. Most days he didn't think anyone would care if he died. Yet here was someone who dropped everything and took an eight hour flight just to be sure that he was still alive. He had no words. As they continued down the street, Jakob questioned the male again. Beside him, Abel shook his head and spoke about sending Kieran home. Jakob nodded in agreement. "Do you think he'll really go?" he continued. He wondered if it would be so simple. If this afternoon was any indication, he didn't think so.

 

[xDarkWinterx]

⋮ ۩ ) • • • ❛ 𝙅𝙪𝙙𝙜𝙚, 𝙅𝙪𝙧𝙮 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙀𝙭𝙚𝙘𝙪𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣𝙚𝙧.❜



Kieran wasn't so sure if a talk between them would be a good thing. Holding back was not his forte and he probably wouldn't keep his hands to himself. He was angry with Miguel for not allowing others to help him. Kirean didn't understand his need to always protect himself and never ask for help either. He had wanted to help Miguel but wasn't allowed and let himself be pushed away. Kirean was probably selfish too for running away without so much as where he was going.

Abel continued to walk beside Miguel down the road. He wasn't in the mood to talk to Kirean tonight. Though he hadn't informed him he was in Germany. Abel could likely request he return home though there was still a full week on his plane ticket before his return. He heard Miguel question him again. Abel shrugged mostly to himself. "Who knows…I hope so…" He responded unsure of his words.

 

[Pure Acid Dreamer]

Alone, a talk between them a talk probably wasn't for the best. If Jakob was going to talk to Kieran, he wanted it to be in public. He knew that Kieran was still angry with him and likely wanted to hurt him. Jakob didn't regret putting himself above his loved ones. Why should they get hurt or die for something he did? It wasn't right, and he didn't get why Kieran couldn't understand that. Maybe it was his pride or ego, he didn't know and at this point he was beyond caring. If they were lucky, Cornelius had forgotten all about them and his stupid vendetta.

Continuing down the street, Jakob couldn't help asking about Kieran. Abel was his only outside link to him. If anyone knew what was going on with him, it would probably be Abel. However, he understood if he didn't want to talk anymore about him. He didn't know what Abel might be feeling towards Kieran at the moment. Was he mad, upset? He didn't know and he probably wouldn't with the way Abel kept him on a need to know basis. Questioning the male again, Jakob heard the uncertainty in Abel's voice. He felt bad for asking, as he had hoped Abel could provide him the answer he wanted to hear. Reaching out, he took the males hand into his own. "Well, I guess we have a few days to try and figure it out then." he said with a small smiled.

 

[xDarkWinterx]

⋮ ۩ ) • • • ❛ 𝙅𝙪𝙙𝙜𝙚, 𝙅𝙪𝙧𝙮 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙀𝙭𝙚𝙘𝙪𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣𝙚𝙧.❜



It was late and Abel was hardly in the mood to discuss the mechanics of Kirean's thoughts or feelings. He was angry at him but wasn't sure for which reason, he had a few. Abel continued to walk down the street with Miguel. He could understand his worry however he didn't know how to comfort him when he honestly didn't know the answer. Abel felt Miguel soon take his hand as he listened to him speak. He held onto Miguel's hand as they walked, smiling at his enthusiasm.

 

[Pure Acid Dreamer]

In a perfect world, Abel would have all the answers and know just what to do about his Kieran problem. But the sad reality was that he seemed just as lost as he was. For now, it probably best just to drop it. Jakob didn't want to cause him anymore unnecessary stress than needed. He was over four thousand miles from home. He ought to be able to sit, relax, maybe take a few days and not worry about all this mob business. While he knew it was impossible to completely ignore his duties, Jakob wanted him to have at least a little fun while he was here. He tried his best to be optimistic and took Abel's hand into his own. He watched as Abel smiled back at him. His own smile softened as he held on to the male and continued to lead him down towards the next block.

 

[xDarkWinterx]

⋮ ۩ ) • • • ❛ 𝙅𝙪𝙙𝙜𝙚, 𝙅𝙪𝙧𝙮 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙀𝙭𝙚𝙘𝙪𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣𝙚𝙧.❜



While the thought of relaxing sounded intriguing, his mind was still in panic and worry. Abel tried not to let his stress show. Now was not exactly the time to run off on a vacation, plus he did exactly know such meaning either. He had never really traveled out of the United States, much less Illinois. Abel was very much a homebody.

Even if he didn't show it, he was happy to be here. Abel had missed Miguel more than he had realized. Sure they had been conversing via texts but it wasn't the same. He allowed himself the small happiness for what it was as he held onto Miguel's hand as they walked down the street. They had never done such a thing back home.

 

[Pure Acid Dreamer]

If there was anything he was grateful towards Abel for, it was his uncanny ability to keep his composure. Even in a time of crisis, he still somehow managed to keep himself together. Jakob had never really learned such a skill. It was one of his many flaws, both as a person and an assassin. In his head, he often thought he keeping himself in check. But somehow, someway someone like Abel, Kieran, or even Cornelius would see right through him. It made him realize just how lacking he truly was and wondered in hindsight what else gave him away. It was likely nothing short of a miracle that he had somehow survived all those years in such a position. But it was in the past, even if Abel's work was not. For just a little while he hoped that Abel would be able to have something of a vacation, even if it was a short one.

Walking down the next block, Jakob relaxed a little as he held the man's hand. He too had missed hanging out together with him. He realized they'd never really done something like this back in Chicago. The closest thing Abel had done to taking him out was the time they went to that gentleman's club. Any other time he was with him was either at his home or in the night club. It was almost surreal to be walking with him like this and just holding his hand. He didn't want to allow himself to delude into thinking it was a date. For now just being with him would have to suffice. "I have another question." he asked, glancing up towards the man. "Have you ever been to Germany before?" It was a simple enough question. One he thought might help them figure out what to do from now until Abel went home. Jakob didn't mind the idea of playing tour guide.

 

[xDarkWinterx]

⋮ ۩ ) • • • ❛ 𝙅𝙪𝙙𝙜𝙚, 𝙅𝙪𝙧𝙮 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙀𝙭𝙚𝙘𝙪𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣𝙚𝙧.❜




Indeed they had never been on a date, the closest was to the gentlemen's club though that was hardly a date. Back then Miguel wasn't his to claim even now he wasn't. However he just wanted to enjoy his time with Miguel now for what it was worth. He continued down the street with Miguel not sure where he was going. Abel soon heard Miguel question him. He glanced toward him, not surprised by his question. Abel smiled but shook his head. "No, I've never been…" He responded as he continued walking. Abel had wanted to visit but never found a reason till now.

 

[Pure Acid Dreamer]

It was true, in the past he had never belonged to Abel. Though the times they were together were hardly a secret. Kieran knew, and he probably hated him a little bit more every time he turned to Abel for advice and comfort. The gentleman's club could have been a date if Jakob hadn't been in such an emotional state. It was the same day that Kieran kicked him out of his car and left him in the middle of the city. He'd never forgotten how even back then Abel had dropped everything and come to his aid. He had tried everything he could to brighten his mood and stop the tears. It was probably one of the first of many instances where he had begun to have feelings towards Abel. He couldn't really pinpoint one exact moment when he knew. By the time he left to go home, he hated every second of it. He knew that they couldn't be together, but god how he wished they could. Jakob convinced himself that it was simply feelings of loneliness. Being with him now, he wasn't so sure. He couldn't stop the giddy feelings in the pit of his stomach nor could he silence the voice in the back of his head urging him to kiss those smiling lips.

Jakob brushed the intrusive thoughts away and inquired him about his travels. It wasn't surprising to learn that he had never been to Germany before. It was expensive even for just one ticket. He hated to think how much Abel had spent to send both Kieran and himself all this way. All because of him. Jakob didn't linger on the thought and watched Abel shake his head as he spoke. "Well, once you're full and rested," he continued. "Is there anywhere you would like to go? There are a few museums and shops we could check out." Jakob didn't mind the idea of showing Abel around town. There were some options in the area and getting to some of the bigger tourist attractions weren't very far by train. He understood that Abel hadn't come here for a vacation and that he still needed to sort things with Kieran. But he didn't see the harm in setting aside at least one day to do some stuff.

 

[xDarkWinterx]

⋮ ۩ ) • • • ❛ 𝙅𝙪𝙙𝙜𝙚, 𝙅𝙪𝙧𝙮 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙀𝙭𝙚𝙘𝙪𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣𝙚𝙧.❜



Such intrusive thoughts only radiated his own. He couldn't deny that before Miguel left he had started to have feelings for him as well. Abel would likely never admit such feelings after all what good would it do now. They both lived in different worlds and he was merely visiting.

Of course the tickets were expensive but for his case, he would dread it if he hadn't checked on Miguel. Abel also hardly cared about the cost, it wasn't as if he was poor. He listened as Miguel questioned him about some thoughts. Abel hadn't really given the whole tourist view much attention. However, being escorted by Miguel intrigued him. "Hm, I hadn't really thought of it though I'm sure you could always show me." He teased at the idea of Miguel playing tour guide.

 

[Pure Acid Dreamer]

Jakob knew that Abel would never be his. Even if they did share similar feelings, it would never happen. They were too different now. Abel in his world, and Jakob in his. Even if they could get past such a silly detail, the distance alone would drive him insane. It would exactly like the last two years but worse. He would likely spend his time pining away while Abel made another excuse not to come see him. Painful as it sounded, he was okay with being his friend. He could still hold his stupid hand, make jokes, and spend time with him. And if the man would allow it, just maybe, he would get one kiss out of him before he left.

Guilty as he was for dragging him out here, he was glad that Abel had taken the chance to check on him. He knew it was expensive, and he didn't care that Abel could easily afford it. Hell, he could probably afford a lot of things if he truly wanted to. But the fact that he came anyway was something that Jakob would not be forgetting anytime soon. Together they made their way down the second block as Jakob continued his line of questioning. He was glad for the darkness surrounding them as his cheeks warmed and turned shades of pink due to Abel's teasing. He smiled back at the male and gave a small nod. "I can think of a few quiet places, you might like. Or if you wanted something a little more exciting, we're not too far from Berlin. It's only a four hour train ride."

 

[xDarkWinterx]

⋮ ۩ ) • • • ❛ 𝙅𝙪𝙙𝙜𝙚, 𝙅𝙪𝙧𝙮 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙀𝙭𝙚𝙘𝙪𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣𝙚𝙧.❜



The last two years had been miserable though he wasn't likely to explain it. He wasn't here long and didn't want to ruin it. Abel chose not to dwell on the past or what ifs. He continued walking with Miguel as he teased him. Abel glanced to see Miguel nod beside him. He listened as he spoke, curious to know where he wanted to take him. Abel nodded, "Sure, we'll see where your travels take us." He responded not at all put off by the idea of Miguel taking him anywhere. Abel was curious to explore the city for what it was worth.

 

[Pure Acid Dreamer]

He didn't know how long Abel would be here, but a little sight seeing didn't sound so bad. After all, it was his first time over here and for he all he knew maybe even his last. Jakob didn't know when he would see Abel again, if ever. He couldn't help feeling a little excited at the prospect of showing off his hometown. While it wasn't as flashy as Berlin, there were still plenty of things to do, sights to see, and enough food that even someone with Abel's minimum palate could find something to enjoy. Jakob didn't have an exact plan in mind just yet, but he liked the idea of starting with one of his favorite sights and working from there. His smiled broadened as the male agreed to let him show him around. "In that case, I'll definitely make it worth your while." he teased.

 

[xDarkWinterx]

⋮ ۩ ) • • • ❛ 𝙅𝙪𝙙𝙜𝙚, 𝙅𝙪𝙧𝙮 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙀𝙭𝙚𝙘𝙪𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣𝙚𝙧.❜



The idea of seeing the things that excited Miguel, were intriguing to him. Perhaps then he'd understand the appeal of Miguel running home. He hadn't questioned him on it years ago, just accepted the terms. However, now that he was here, he was curious. Abel wanted to see the hidden life of here while Berlin was probably more flashy with too many people. He wanted a chance to enjoy both sides. Abel listened as Miguel soon teased him. "Oh, no doubt." He teased Miguel again as they continued down the street.

 

[Pure Acid Dreamer]

Compared to Berlin, Dusseldorf was much smaller and quieter. But still, it held its charms. For Jakob, it was home, always had been. He hoped that Abel could enjoy it as much as he did. But he understood if he found it a bit dull to his liking. The idea of traveling to another city didn't bother him. It was one thing he had missed about Europe. If he wanted to travel in America, he either needed a car, bus, or plane ticket to get there. Here at home, he could grab a two hour travel ride and be in Amsterdam. He had missed traveling so easily from one country to another. It was partly why he chose to come back to Germany. If Cornelius had followed him, all he needed was his passport and he could make it to one of the neighboring countries. They made their way down to the third block while Jakob teased the man. The way Abel teased him back made him want to kiss him even more. He felt himself blush once more and tried to ignore the feeling. It would surely go away.