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In third grade I went to a psychiatrist for the first time, after my parents realized that my short temper was a bit more than child's fits, and the fact that I often had trouble focusing on homework. I then underwent a psychological evaluation, and a series of tests where they monitored my EEG that I am still clueless about, and have no idea what they were actually for.

To date, I have been diagnosed with:
Bipolar disorder
Oppositional Defiant Disorder
Attention Deficit Disorder
Obsessive Compulsive Disorder

I took ALOT of medication up through late in highschool, at which time I was only taking Guanfacine, after dropping Citalophram and Prozac. Unfortunately, my depleted aggression at that point made me highly antisocial, as I'd simply ignore or avoid people. Guanfacine was one of those medications that could really rob you of your ability to want to do anything at all.

But since highschool, I haven't been taking any regular medication at all. College left me at a bit of a mental discord, as I realized how much I'd changed, and that everything wasn't as one sided as I thought. Time to re-define myself, I guess. It makes some parts of my life, such as religion, hard to re-figure out.

To stay relevant to the topic, there are plenty of worse things to take than isotretinoin. If you can afford it (several hundred a month without insurance ._. + lab fees for the mandatory blood tests to actually take it), it's completely worth it to cure acne.

Changed in general. College showed me that you don't have to be an upper-class white Christian to be successful in your ventures, and that there's more to morality than "right" and "wrong". In more than one way, I miss the psychotic episodes I had as a kid, and I realize now that much of what was once labeled mental illness could in another time be considered an evolutionary benefit. It would take too long to tell you how I've changed and what I believe, as I'd have to also explain what I previously believed, and how I felt beforehand.

Now the not-so-one-sided part I can explain. I was raised to believe that there was one religion, one type of successful person, one way that these people dressed, etc. My parents encouraged me to make friends with people at rich, white, southern baptist churches. Through 4th grade they sent me to expensive white Christian schools (though I ended up getting kicked out of one after my bipolar side kicked in). In public school, my parents would say things that they didn't even realize were offensive, telling me what type of person to hang out with, and what to wear. For example, I was told to stay away from a girl I liked, because of the way she dressed. To them, there was never any reason to do anything wrong, this included the "laws" of society, which I now believe to be bullshit. I took much of what my parents said to heart back then.

In highschool, my parents were right. The druggies, the gays, people of other races, etc, performed more poorly than the type of friends my parents wanted me to have. In college, this isn't the same. I see successful people who break the law, are gay, aren't white, love to get drunk, and have no religion whatsoever. My parent's often believed that if you lived for yourself you wouldn't perform well academically. But in college I see people who believe in studying hard for their own benefit, yet are able to balance it against a less acceptable life style. The world isn't as white and black as my parents made it out to be.

There are times were I need everything perfect. Something has to be just somewhere in relation to something else.

Bugs my parents, but they usually end up agreeing. Like where something should go, what color to pick out, what matches what...

Pisses me off though. My guess is that it's not OCD, but something about how my brain works, something to do with not having much trouble in math classes... With would explain why I hate math, even though it's not particularly difficult for me.

So yes, OCD could easily drive a person nuts, unless the OCD was very mild, or so severe that the person didn't think of it as being odd.



By a disorder being an excuse... You ever heard of ridlin? I've heard things (even the news on occasion) say that it's likely that it's being over prescribed, or ADHD is over diagnosed. Basically that adults are forgetting that children can't sit in one spot for five hours unless they are adequately distracted or entertained.
On the other hand, it could be like the crime going down thing. The stats aren't on if crime has gone down, it's that cops haven't found as much... so it could mean there is less crime, or mean that the cops aren't doing their job as well as the previous year. Same thing with crime going up/more drug busts. Maybe the cops just got better, instead of more people dealing drugs.

~Metalic_Noodles

Trait, because it's not necessarily a flaw, even thought one person, or group that will never meet someone with the trait, says it is.

~Metalic_Noodles

in short, you were a stubborn kid.

creepy, but i cant say i havent seen it before. because i have, and sadly, it is in high school. =o

Neh, this was when I was in elementary school.