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Posted: Wed Dec 19, 2007 12:25 pm
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Posted: Fri Dec 21, 2007 12:48 pm
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Posted: Fri Dec 21, 2007 1:40 pm
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Posted: Fri Dec 21, 2007 3:07 pm
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Posted: Sat Dec 22, 2007 2:00 pm
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Posted: Sat Dec 22, 2007 8:33 pm
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Posted: Sat Dec 22, 2007 8:46 pm
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Posted: Sat Dec 22, 2007 8:55 pm
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Posted: Sat Dec 22, 2007 8:59 pm
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Posted: Sat Dec 22, 2007 9:05 pm
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S'okay..... I try to be over it. My pal and I have hedged bets however, on how long it'll be before she comes back, but that don't take away the loneliness now. Generally, I hang out here and ppl help me forget. So much zaniness going on here, how could I not? I really miss her when I lay down to sleep though. True, she was epileptic and there was always a chance she could wake me with a seizure....and I do still worry about her. But I, unlike her, think of the good times as well. *sigh* I wish I could find someone at least close to that soon, really. I don't even care about sex, in truth. It's the having a warm body next to me at night, or a person to talk to when no one else will. And I mean rl talk. lol, I'm a motormouth. but I have my moments when I listen. I am trying to work on that...honest! xd
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Posted: Sat Dec 22, 2007 9:17 pm
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shinsevenx S'okay..... I try to be over it. My pal and I have hedged bets however, on how long it'll be before she comes back, but that don't take away the loneliness now. Generally, I hang out here and ppl help me forget. So much zaniness going on here, how could I not? I really miss her when I lay down to sleep though. True, she was epileptic and there was always a chance she could wake me with a seizure....and I do still worry about her. But I, unlike her, think of the good times as well. *sigh* I wish I could find someone at least close to that soon, really. I don't even care about sex, in truth. It's the having a warm body next to me at night, or a person to talk to when no one else will. And I mean rl talk. lol, I'm a motormouth. but I have my moments when I listen. I am trying to work on that...honest! xd
You just want someone to get you a christmas present. rofl
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Posted: Sat Dec 22, 2007 9:18 pm
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Posted: Sat Dec 22, 2007 9:30 pm
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well, in actuality, it was my buddy that said he thinks she'll show up when I am doing really really well, and I am on that road. I have a job now, and I am working on my community service, I am going to counseling now and so on. Heck yeah I sure do hope she does come back. My buddy got pissy today and told me that if I truly felt that way, that I deserved to be betrayed again. and yeah, I totally know what you mean.
Yeah, she has grand mal seizures. I used to take care of her when she would have them, doing things like cleaning her up, carrying her to the bath so she could soak and try to relax, and so on. I will never forget the look on her face when I have seen her actually go into a seizure. It is forever etched in my mind. Granted, her and I used to argue a fair bit. and I would say that I was wrong a lot. She was as well, but I don't want ppl to think I'm a total angel and she is a devil. I definitely had my a*****e moments. Sure, I have some issues and such, but I can't see them as an excuse. The point is, I did feel like I could tell her anything too. She was my best friend, my lover, my confidant. She was the reason I awoke when I did sleep. (I'm an insomniac) The whole situation has a weird 'Revenge of The Sith' feel to it. I feel like telling her, "You were supposed to help me lead us into the light, not leave us in darkness! You were my best friend! I love you!" But....No, you aren't selfish. I think it is nice that you feel that way about your boyfriend and I feel he is a very lucky man.
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Posted: Sat Dec 22, 2007 9:38 pm
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Posted: Sat Dec 22, 2007 9:47 pm
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Well, my friend is very biased towards me, b/c he's like a father figure to me, in a sense. He's also very old school, and He's trying to get me to wake up to what he perceives as me wanting someone bad in my life. Thank you...You know, I read some of your blog, mainly b/c I seen some stuff that I found interesting, and I found you to be a very interesting, deep person. So, for you to compliment me like you did, it is an honor. ^__^ You have a way with words yourself. Oh, and my friend has his own issues too....his wife died four years ago. He's still not really let go. I feel for him. Underneath it all, he really is a cool guy, he just wishes to protect me I think.
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