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I was a little bit too young when I started it but it worked out in the end because I am married to the perfect guy for me and I was sleeping with him before we got married. My mother told me when he asked me if I would marry him before we had done anything that O couldn't get married without having sex with him first because it was like buying a used car without test driving it first. My mother is a very weird person. I think that when both people have really thought about it and know they are ready then you are old enough. I thought I was ready when I did it but I was young and stupid and I wasn't thinking. I thought that he would only stay if I did that but it all worked out in the end when I found my husband and I wouldn't trade any of what I did for the world because it might not have worked out the way it did if I hadn't. Also the after marriage thing I agree with in a way but disagree as well because girls usually hold the loss of their virginity against the guy who took it because guys always act like they are the only one who she could ever be with for the rest of her life after that and it just isn't the case.

I say when both partners feel ready and if your worried about STDs or getting pregnant just wear a condom...

People wear a condom then no babys!

I wrote this awhile ago.
It's very important to me and I'm glad someone made this topic so I could post it.

"Why do I wait?

So many times I ask myself that very question; for what reason do I save myself? Why do I hold so fast to the ideal that I'm waiting for the 'special someone just for me'? I find it hard to believe at times that I'll be of any worth to a man someday. That all I have to offer is a smile, a helping hand, and a heavy heart. Underneath these clothes lie not a silicon stuffed bra and a thong two~sizes~too~small but the body of a young woman; It's softness and nature that I find myself proud of at times and I scorn when I feel envy for those who produce more desires then my own. I don't fall into the stereotype that is known so well today. I don't have a 'rocking figure' that so many people are allured to on the cover of magazines and those dirty playboy books. I don't display myself like a common toy to be fondled and enjoyed without the guilt of returning affections. My skin isn't flawless, my step elegant, or my thoughts like most would expect of me. I'm different.

So why do I hold myself this way?
Because I want more then anything to belong.~

Someday, I want to give myself away. Find someone who is truely worthy of me as I hold myself to the highest. A man who has the right to search every subtle curve of my body and it's forbidden allure; to seek worldly pleasures of passion in it's core and bind us as one. Someday I'll surrender everything and stain the purity that I've held safe so long, so close to my breast. To put a sacred blush upon the face of my name for which I shall not be ashamed.

Is that really why?
Or am I afraid?
Do I fear something will happen?
Or am I scared to be left alone; deemed useless after robbed of what I find my one true worth?

Why do I choose to be alone and not give into the social norm of 'being free'?
Maybe I'm prude.
Maybe I just want to be like the forbidden fruit, something wanted but never within reach.
Maybe I'll never find anyone who will quell my fire and fill my thirst for passion.

Either way, until then, no matter what you think of me...

I shall sing my song in solitude and look to the Heavens for the answers to those questions that have troubled me since so long ago.

And if I find no one worthy...

I shall forever remain...
...a pure and untouched angel~"

~Fushi

Sex is way too overrated among teenagers these days. All i see these days is non-virgins mocking virgins and virgins coupling up with another virgins just to have sex and break up (because they didn't really knew themselves properly from the beggining) so they both can join another non-virgins to mock other virgins. It's like a neverending circle today. It makes me sick, but oh well, i'm no great speaker to reason like couple of million teenagers. I'll just sit here and watch what will come next.

Sex after marrige all the way

According to certain people stare not everyone believes that. I dont for one