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My parents are fighting more.
Some times they fight over the stupidest things.
I'm scared of what'll happen.
Clearly, my brother is too.
We already saved their marriage once.
I don't know if we can do it again.
And last time we did it, we were in hell during the progress.
I'm very worried over all of this.
I'm scared.
ESPECIALLY since the last fight was over my weight...

I understand all of that.
And I'm not worried about murder.
I'm worried about the divorce and how things will work out from there.
And it's just that sometimes, they fight over the stupidest things you can think of.
Like dad misheard mom and when my aunt (I think it was her) called, he said that she was out shopping or something. Then that warrented my dad yelling at my mom after her remark that he misheard her.
I was really hungry but I skipped having more dinner so I could get the hell out of there.

Oh yeah, and all this talk about my mom and mis-somethinging reminds me of something else to went about.
My mom is a b***h.
She just bitches a lot.
My brother said that she misremembers alot, and instead of responding to what he actually SAID, she scolded him all because misremember is not a real word.
And then she insited that I take a pair of white gloves with me to peo's house for our snow ball fight (very crappy gloves) and when one of these WHITE gloves fell out of my CRAP of a coat pocket and got lost in WHITE snow, she threw a fit. "YOU WASTED MY MONEY" to quote. Then she said no more computer until we find this glove. Then she commanded that we go to peo's house to look for it. But peo's not HOME. She still INSISTED that we TRESPASS onto her property to find the glove. She admitted she was wrong and overreacting later, but there was no reason to overreact like THAT. I mean, the glove costs four ******** dollars. I have like, 200. More actually. I'll just buy another pair.
OH YEAH. When she overreacted, she yelled so much, so hard, and I was so hurt by all of this, I went up to my room and cried. When I went downstairs to get my dinner, she saw me, said I better stop crying, and said that I'm not going to hide in my room all day.
I swear. Really.

And Dana, don't say that me not having to spend so much time with her will be a positive of divorce.
My dad is awesome, but when he yells, he yells loud and he has a brutal punishment.

The trigger for the anger MAY have been that I forgot I lost them and when she asked if I had them and I said I had both. The trigger was PROBABLY me lying to her, causing that for like, the third day in a row.
But the lie wasn't the main focus of the yelling.
Hell, even worse. She took it out on my brother too.
But she apparently overeacts alot.

My parents divorced when I was...hmm, I think I was about six years old. So there's no way I could have really known what was going on, let alone "save their marriage." I'm not sure what you meant by that. If you took an active role in saving their marriage, not a passive one, such as them staying together because of the fact that they have kids, I can't imagine what an active role would be.

Usually the only permanent fix to a broken marriage has to be by the couple themselves. If they aren't willing to fix everything themselves, or at least seek help (and thereby show that they WANT the marriage to be fixed), then there's not a lot that you can do. And it's really not up to you or your brother to fix it, anyway. It is your family, but the root of the problem is between your parents, not your family.

It's really none of my business and I'm sorry for preaching to you on such a personal thing. But those are my thoughts anyway.

I hate my old man with a fiery passion not even rivaled by the sun. He's always so overbearing on me, always blowing up at me when I do anything that isn't what he wants me to do. He just got done yelling at me and slamming doors and all of this stuff because I didn't get to take a scholarship application in to the guidance department today because they had locked their doors and so I couldn't go in. So he yells at me about how I'm not doing everything in my power to get the thing done. Then he blows up at me because I didn't do an essay for the same scholarship because I have other things that I have to worry about for school, like passing my last year of high school. Then I had to tell him that I had a study thing for the one class I stand a chance of failing this year, go figure, it's a required class, and couldn't pick up my brother because I would probably be there. So he yells some more about how he's going to be pissed off if we don't even send the application in because it's $4000 we could use for school. I don't even need it, my other scholarships and awards have covered my first year of school anyway, besides if he didn't spend ******** $5000 a year on my brothers wrestling, or my other brother's baseball, it's not like it would be a hard thing to cover what I would lose after my first year. And of course, I won't ever say anything like this to him because he wouldn't listen to me at all. Like when I was first looking at colleges, I was dead set on going to GA Tech, but he did everything in his power to get me to look at a far inferior school because it had an engineering program that was run through GA Tech, and according to my mom, the college reminded him of the one that he went to for like, a whole semester way back when. So of course, since he controls the money in the family, and the campus wasn't terrible, and I could transfer up to Tech after two years, I humored him and accepted their offers to go to school there.

And I know that someone will be like, "He's just looking out for your best interests," to which I have to say, like hell he is, he's trying to live the life he never had through me.

My dad is sort of like that, but we don't make anywhere near as much money. Like this year, he decided, probably with my mom, to buy all new furniture for the front room, which I was cool with because our old stuff was, well, old. But then my mom goes to get him a Christmas present, a surround sound system, and when he finds out that it won't work the TV that we had, he takes my mom, and instead of just buying a TV of roughly the same size that was newer, he decided that he had to have a 50" one. Then he started saying how we didn't have the money to do some stuff. confused

Yeah though, he looked like he wanted to hit something last night when I told him that I couldn't turn the scholarship in because it was supposed to be post marked Monday, and I didn't have it anywhere done and didn't know about that little part. So now he is telling me that I have to have my next one done by this weekend, which is insane because I need a third recommendation letter, and don't have anyone to ask to write one. Then both of my parents decided to lecture me on how they've, "Never heard of a college student with too much money for school."

i´m sick of beeing so hard to get golds and the items beeing so expencive stressed i need to get more 10k to buy a lunar scyth and it´s going to be a eternity to get it crying