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Once again, patience. Trust me. I used to be in the exact same position you were. The only difference was, I didn't complain about people not donating to me. Eventually I made friends here and sometimes they would give me things but it doesn't happen like magic. The more you whine about it, the less likely people will donate to you.

Well there's a sticky that tells you all the ways to earn gold. Do all of them every day but its not going to make you an instant millionaire. You could also try and play the market but that involves a bit more risk.

I'm not mad at anyone. Just keep going and It'll eventually pay off.

i feel tired and moderately disillusioned ._.

damn, what a whiner.

does he actually pronounce "pathetic" "pathetique"? rofl

Ok I needed to vent for a while, so why not do it here where tons of strangers can read it, right?

I'm going to rant about myself (hurray for self-pity!).

Last month I decided to vent out everything that I had been building up inside with my psychology professor. I just wanted to talk about a few things, I didn't want to let it all out, BUT I of course was on a roll and told her everything. I told her about how frustrated I was with myself because of my nervous problems. I tend to get really nervous under the most ridiculous circumstances, I don't know if it's normal for my hands to be shaking while I'm trying to take a sip of my coffee from the freaking spoon (this happens mostly while others are watching, but I've noticed that it happens even if I'm alone :/).

I told her about my relationship with my mom and how it's not a bad relationship, but I do find it hard to communicate with her about things that bother me because I break down crying and this bothers her and can lead to making her angry which in turn frustrates me because I feel stupid about it and she makes it worse by getting angry at me for it. I also told her that I wish I could just talk with her without breaking down so that maybe she'd understand. I also feel like my mom has these thought out plans for my future, she always wants me to be the best and yes I can understand that she wants what's best for me, but I fail at times and I'm not freaking perfect! Once I got a B in one of my classes and I got a freaking lecture from her! Like what the hell? scream
I even let her know that she was making me feel like I got a D instead.
She's an amazing woman, very strong and intelligent and I wish I had that in me, but I'm not like her. Now I don't want to be misunderstood here, I love my mom a lot, she tries very hard to gives us a good life and she's been through a lot of abuse and hardships which is where she gained her strength from. I'm just ranting about some of the things she does that hurt me and about how I want to be less of a nervous mess.

Now I'll end this here cause I might keep ranting on...
^_^