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 Posted: Sun Nov 12, 2006 9:45 pm
Indigo Project I know it wasn't an outright rejection. I doubt that I am justified in feeling the way I do. I can't help it. I want attention. I want to be held... I feel like I want to do something durastice, dangerous, stupid... Me too...... But there's that fear of regret, the fear of doing something COMPLETELY idiotic and living with it. I'm afraid of telling my crush anything, lest I muck things up like I always do...
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Posted: Sun Nov 12, 2006 9:47 pm
Slim95 Indigo Project I know it wasn't an outright rejection. I doubt that I am justified in feeling the way I do. I can't help it. I want attention. I want to be held... I feel like I want to do something durastice, dangerous, stupid... Me too...... But there's that fear of regret, the fear of doing something COMPLETELY idiotic and living with it. I'm afraid of telling my crush anything, lest I muck things up like I always do... I'm feeling desperate now though. he held me once, and it was like finally having heaven back. Wondering if it means anything is worse than if it had never happened at all.
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Posted: Sun Nov 12, 2006 9:50 pm
Indigo Project Slim95 Indigo Project I know it wasn't an outright rejection. I doubt that I am justified in feeling the way I do. I can't help it. I want attention. I want to be held... I feel like I want to do something durastice, dangerous, stupid... Me too...... But there's that fear of regret, the fear of doing something COMPLETELY idiotic and living with it. I'm afraid of telling my crush anything, lest I muck things up like I always do... I'm feeling desperate now though. he held me once, and it was like finally having heaven back. Wondering if it means anything is worse than if it had never happened at all. I'm sorry, Indy. I can't even speak face-to-face with my crush, so I suppose everything for me is much less awkward...
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Posted: Sun Nov 12, 2006 9:53 pm
I feel as though I want to repeatedly hit my head against the wall until an answer bleeds its way out.
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Posted: Sun Nov 12, 2006 9:55 pm
Indigo Project I feel as though I want to repeatedly hit my head against the wall until an answer bleeds its way out. No, that doesn't work. *has a mysterious bandaid on her forehead* I suppose we'll have to wander about until we get answers?
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Posted: Sun Nov 12, 2006 9:59 pm
Slim95 Indigo Project I feel as though I want to repeatedly hit my head against the wall until an answer bleeds its way out. No, that doesn't work. *has a mysterious bandaid on her forehead* I suppose we'll have to wander about until we get answers? I guess so... Still, I hate this. One thing I truely hate is having an answer be just barely out of reach.
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Posted: Sun Dec 10, 2006 6:28 pm
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Posted: Sun Dec 10, 2006 6:35 pm
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Posted: Sun Dec 10, 2006 6:38 pm
It's been hard lately. I had to give up on my crush after it finally seemed he was interested, I'm screwing up academicly, I'm not losing any weight, and I'm just barely pulling myself out of debt now.
I'm so burnt out by all of this.
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Posted: Sun Dec 10, 2006 6:39 pm
Indigo Project question How much do you hate it? question How do you try to make being single enjoyable? question I dunno, you get the idea... EDIT: New name, new poll, broader range of topics... sort of. SO much arrow shopping and going out with friends and taking revenge on the guys arrow Im happy now! xd
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Posted: Sun Dec 10, 2006 6:41 pm
Indigo Project It's been hard lately. I had to give up on my crush after it finally seemed he was interested, . Awww, what happened? As for screwing up academically, that's a familiar one - more than half way through a really important essay, due in on friday, and I've realised it's not any good and I'm going to have to start again neutral
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Posted: Sun Dec 10, 2006 6:44 pm
Indigo Project It's been hard lately. I had to give up on my crush after it finally seemed he was interested, I'm screwing up academicly, I'm not losing any weight, and I'm just barely pulling myself out of debt now. I'm so burnt out by all of this. I'm in a similar place... probably gonna get evicted by the end of the month, suffering from unknown ailments... finals week is starting and my boss wants me to work during class-hours... >_< I want bubble-wrap >:E
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Posted: Sun Dec 10, 2006 6:45 pm
Indigo Project It's been hard lately. I had to give up on my crush after it finally seemed he was interested, I'm screwing up academicly, I'm not losing any weight, and I'm just barely pulling myself out of debt now. I'm so burnt out by all of this. ouch. sad heart *hugs tight*
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Posted: Sun Dec 10, 2006 6:45 pm
girl_no_13 Indigo Project It's been hard lately. I had to give up on my crush after it finally seemed he was interested... Awww, what happened? Well, he never wrote or called, though I tried to contact him twice. I finally saw him again on the... 25th? Whatever the Saturday after Thanksgiving was. We were as noisy and playful as ever, but I felt like a barrier had gone up. After talking to one of my friends (also a friend of his sister's, who has known the family for years), she told me to forget about him, and that I could do better. He hasn't tried to contact me since. It feels like it was over before it even started, but it still hurts a little. This guy had been my crush for an entire year.
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Posted: Sun Dec 10, 2006 6:47 pm
The-Mut-Cat Indigo Project It's been hard lately. I had to give up on my crush after it finally seemed he was interested, I'm screwing up academicly, I'm not losing any weight, and I'm just barely pulling myself out of debt now. I'm so burnt out by all of this. I'm in a similar place... probably gonna get evicted by the end of the month, suffering from unknown ailments... finals week is starting and my boss wants me to work during class-hours... >_< I want bubble-wrap >:E .
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