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 Posted: Fri Dec 29, 2006 12:23 am
Celestial Burden My intention wasn't to upset you. It's just...Silver is a really close friend of mine and she's gotten me through a lot of things. So when you started attacking her like that I took it personally. Mind you, it seemed very serious the way you posted it. I know I over reacted then and just now. I know memories hurt, my own past is painful. I didn't mean to attack you the way I did. I do honestly apologize for saying such things. when i role play, i make it seem like im actually doing the thing i say he's doing, i make it seem real, its how i am, and ive stated that but people dont pay attention when i have said that in the past for being blamed of things, and i have alot of problems, im literally crazy in the head from all the daily trama i go through, i may not show the pain im feeling at the time, but eventually i blow up and it all pours out of me, i try to forget my past any you made me start to remember it with the things you said, i dont like my past because i hurt people which hurts me for being that way, plus all the emotional and physical drama in my life, if you told my to jump off the empire state building, i'd do it
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Posted: Fri Dec 29, 2006 12:24 am
If you feel like listening I'll explain some of my problems so you have a bit of a clue to what i deal with
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Posted: Fri Dec 29, 2006 12:27 am
I'm willing to listen, but just so you know I don't exactly have the best life either. Both of us have our memories that we wish were buried. I have my own fair share of them.
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Posted: Fri Dec 29, 2006 12:38 am
well, i cant get to sleep till like 3 in the morning ever, i never have enough sleep, so im kinda cranky during the day, ive got a really weird twitch, i have no clue as to why i twitch, but i do, for some reason, my body doesn't let out the emotion i should be feeling, i never feel happy i have to fake it, i only get sad when i remember my past, and when i blow up from anger if your in my way ill try to kill you, and i cant stop myself, every day im made fun of all day long, plus i get in lots of fights cause people dont like me, so i get beat up cause the people im fighting are huge, when i try to express myself to someone, they dont listen its like im talking to a wall, ive almost killed my cousin a couple hundred times, ive almost drowned, died of internal bleeding, almost died from fatal blows to the head, ive had my arm snaped, this is just what i remember which is about two years out of nine years of torture other than the being made fun of and the getting beaten up, ohh ive almost fell off a cliff, almost fell into a 300 degree hot spring in this national park in new zealand, ive almost bashed my head open in the creek from falling off a gas pipe, almost been light on fire, after falling in gasoline, almost drowned from getting caught in a flood, almost had my head bashed open with a huge piece of wood that i avoided without knowing it was there, pure luck, ive almost crashed into tomb stones, bashed my head on trees after falling down hills, barely avoided getting hit by a car, hmmmmmm let me think...
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Posted: Fri Dec 29, 2006 12:41 am
... almost fell over the railing by the park, almost been choked and drowned at the same time in a pool, almost fell off a 30ft. high slide thing at the park, almost fell through the ice on the pond in the winter, what else is there....
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Posted: Fri Dec 29, 2006 12:45 am
... riding my bike over a huge hole and getting knocked out cold from impact, fell out of 30 ft. trees but i caught the branches so i got lucky the couple of times that happened, almost got smashed by a huge rock that fell down a steep hill, almost had three fingers bitten off by a rottwiler (sp), almost had my ummm well lower parts wacked by a skate board....
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Posted: Fri Dec 29, 2006 12:48 am
... almost choped off my arm with a meat cleaver because i was fooling around, got hit in the head by a golf ball, ran into the corner of a brick head first, as a baby had a power drill fall on my head, when i was born i didnt have enough blood to live, almost fell over the railing in school which would have meant falling 3 stories...
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Posted: Fri Dec 29, 2006 12:51 am
... have had a dirt bikes wheels break off while going really fast, but i slid so i guess that was ok, have almost been hit by a stampead (sp) of deer during hunting season at my grandfathers, was almost shot the same day, cut my thumb open really deep with those weed cutting things that look like miniature scythes.... wow ive got this much posted
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Posted: Fri Dec 29, 2006 12:57 am
... slid in my yard and cut my foot wide open on a piece of metal sticking out of the ground, jumped out of a tree and landed on the hood of a car, let me see ive had a gang of kids chase me with bats, sometimes my toes or fingers will feel like its being riped off by being pulled upward, hit by a moron in a go kart... i cant remember much more than that, she logged off, Celestial when you read this if you read it, this is like 1/10th to 1/20th of my memories, I'd have listed more, but those memories are buried already and i dont want to remember them again
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Posted: Fri Dec 29, 2006 6:08 am
Dark_Wyven, is that a story or are you just really unfortionate?
hello everyone.
i get to play D&D for the first time in months tonite, that will be fun smile
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Posted: Fri Dec 29, 2006 7:01 am
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Posted: Fri Dec 29, 2006 8:43 am
I'm sorry, but it would seem to me that your story involves quite a bit of physical pain and almosts. Physical pain heals, where as mental pains is much harder to get rid of. There are practially no almosts when I tell you my situation, unless I'm telling you about times I've almost died which is only two.My situation involves a lot of mental anguish which is harder to heal. I had to leave before I could respond, so I had asked Silver to explain my situation for me but I suppose she had to leave before she had a chance to as well.
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Posted: Fri Dec 29, 2006 9:56 am
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Posted: Fri Dec 29, 2006 10:36 am
Don't ask, just don't ask.
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Posted: Fri Dec 29, 2006 10:39 am
Celestial Burden I'm sorry, but it would seem to me that your story involves quite a bit of physical pain and almosts. Physical pain heals, where as mental pains is much harder to get rid of. There are practially no almosts when I tell you my situation, unless I'm telling you about times I've almost died which is only two.My situation involves a lot of mental anguish which is harder to heal. I had to leave before I could respond, so I had asked Silver to explain my situation for me but I suppose she had to leave before she had a chance to as well. yeah thats the physical, because the mental, is mostly one thing going on for years and years, the only reason im over it now, is cause im crazy, and some of those blows to the head, left me a little not right in the head, i can tell you that now
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