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*listens to his music while playing along to Black Sheep by Sonata Arctica*

Dark, I know that I'm crazy. Out of all my childhood friends, so far I'm the only one that hasn't spent at least a week in a padded room, and that's only because my family doesn't have the money to put me in one. I haven't gone through just one thing, but rather several things. I know I may seem inconsidersate, but I've pretty much closed off all of my emotions because I can't deal with them anymore.

I shut out all my memories, so the pain would ease, last night you made me remember those memories, maybe not purposely but i remembered, in all the world, what hurts most is the emotional pain I've endured through out my past, so i shut it out, my emotions, are ******** up because of the life i went through, i tried to hang myself at the age of seven, i was seven, but my friends found me before i could get the rope around my neck, when i get hurt, i start to laugh, not cause its funny, cause my minds ******** up, i know what its like

I'm a masochist, someone who enjoys pain. When I tried to OD, my mother didn't notice. I was upset because of something and I had been crying a lot so she thought I was asleep. She didn't notice the medisince bottle was half empty. She didn't think anything of it when I started wearing long sleeved shirts and pants everyday so that no one would see the scars, she didn't thank a thing of it. My father certaintly never cared. Hell, I just got through my grandmother telling me just how terrible I am and how much she hates me along with how much she doesn't want anything to do with me. As I'm typing this I feel nothing, not a single thing. you know why? Because I've lost the ability to feel upset anymore practically. You have to fight back crying, I don't even have the ability to cry anymore. I'm sorry to hear that you've had a bad life, but remember something, there are those who have it worse. I tell myself that every day. Sure, it makes me feel worse for complaining about my life for a while, but then I start to think better about my life, even if only slightly.

i enjjoy making weapons with house hold items. i've even created about 7 differant ways to make a grenade. that and i've caused myself to bleed from my feet that way it would hurt to walk so it would be a reminder that i need to complete my missions in life.

i could never drink coffee xp i think it has a bad taste to it

Coffee is good. Ask Sanzo, don't let me know you have coffee or I'll try to take it. Speaking of coffee I think I'll go make some right now.

*pulls my legs up into the chair, and tips(<