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wow congrats only two months, heres what you do. first dont tell anyone. i dont care what anyone else says dont say a word to anyone who cares. second dont do the whole cutting and burning and that stuff etc.. third you can either be like me and stop talking to any and all people, i had the problem some said that the only things that ever came ut of my mouth was murder and suicide i stopped talking to freinds and teachers and bought some incense and hey i havent thoughof suicide in a long while. masse murders of different story but thats not the issue

I have attempted suicide...I only told my boyfriend at the time about it. He wasn't too happy. The thing about depression is that it affects others. I ended up making my boyfriend really sad and it ended up with us hurting ourselves and just digging ourselves into our own grave. (Not a good relationship) But here's what happened: Last year, my parents sent me off to my high school like usual and I went away none the wiser. In second period i got a note from the office telling me my parents were there. They said that an opening for a new counselor just opened up and they were taking me there. We started driving and driving and driving. I finally asked, "Where are we going?" They told me they were putting me in a residential care facility in another state. They had packed up all of my belongings and tossed them in the back of the van. Of course, i was distraught. I even considered jumping out of the car onto the freeway. The place they took me to was like a lock-down facility. The doors all had locks, the windows, the bathroom, everything. You had to ask for everything, you couldn't have a conversation with another patient without the "mediators" lurking over our shoulders. They kept me in a hallway type of room, tiny bit bigger than a hallway with a few couches. I was stuck there for an entire week. They wouldn't let me go outside, i ate all my meals alone, it was even more depressing. There was no privacy, they searched our rooms daily. I even had to do a routine for these board directors that came in. (they didn't let me go to school either) They had me speak Japanese to them O.o Anyways, I finally was able to go outside and in then eventually my parents came back for me. I told them that by doing that all trust was gone, they had no right to parent me anymore, and some more fun stuff... I get really edgy about being in the car with both of them, even now.

I'm not saying that this will happen to you. You probably wouldn't be held down on the floor for getting angry at your parents for abandoning you or anything like that. But before others begin to realize, you should deal with it, if you have crazy parents like i do

pm me please i want to talk to u
ps i am 13

Sorry it has taken me so long to post on here. To be honest, I just didn't notice this guild for the longest of time.

First of all, take everything thats been said here by other people and throw it away. Get it out of your mind.

I can help you unlike they possibly could, and I can help you in giving you infomation towards what kind of psychiatrist you actually need to talk to, and what pseudo-doctors you need to stay away from.

You CAN help yourself, and your the only one who could.

Don't hurt yourself, man.
Self preservation is in the human nature, and you want to fight that?

Think about it, this might be your once chance to be alive, and you want to blow it?

Don't.

DONT

dont kill yourself. Talk to someone about it. Like someone you know and are close friends with. Just think of what you have to live for, what you could do with your life, just dont kill yourself. smile

now that's not very nice have u looked at what some people have wrote if u want to give him doctors and such fine but don't tell him to throw away everything else because most of it has been good advice yarg go ahaed and listen to this guy about the doctors but don't throw everything out because these people that are giving u advice abviously care (unless there saying do it) but yeah i just wanted to say that