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[Mugen Nagrom]

~DR.MOOFASA~

Mugen Nagrom

Wanting to be cloud isnt so bad, for awhile when I was a kid I wanted to be Sonic the Hedgehog rofl

aww, that's cute. 4laugh
i used to want to be sailor jupiter. ninja

Sailor Jupiter?wha huh? I used to watch sailor moon for awhile but only because I like hot chicks in skirts...transformation scene= soft core for kids  

[Sentama Lin]

Yeah, same here. My parents used to cosign with me for my student loans, but what happened, after my mom's crazy regression back to gambling, I couldn't get my loans for this year so I was struggling.

My school functions the same way, Kalsie, so I'm trying to scrounge up monies as soon as I can. Until then, my parents said I'm always welcome to stay with them until I get back on my feet. :3 *big change from my posts before, but things have gotten a lot less crazy now*  

[Pnytenshi]

As some of you may know, I have a new guy now... and some of you have seen his picture... he's such a nice guy, he pissed me off last night.

he broke up with his girlfriend about 1 to 2 weeks before we got together. i know... a bit of a bad move but he was the one who was flirting with me in the first place and so i took the chance. What even made me more happy was the fact that i liked this guy for the past six months prior to getting with him. I see him every single day because we work in the same small building... more like a one room warehouse with cubicles in it...

now we've been going out and staying over at each other's place for almost a month. I've helped him fix his house and exposed him to new things and he's taken me to places and done things i've never done myself... like going for a ride on the back of his Harley Davidson motorcycle and going to a shooting range with his own set of guns...

Last night, we went swing dancing and saw his ex's cousins there. he f-ing avoided them like the plague because he didn't want them to spread rumors to his ex. i told him not to worry about it anymore cause she no longer was apart of his life despite her and his dad being next door neighbors.... plus she had found a new man...

he then told me that her dad told him, they talked a while ago, that that hew guy was just a friend..... HE F-ING BELIEVED IT!!! AND I'M SUCH A DUMBASS FOR BELIEVING IT AT FIRST TOO!!!

The reason for why my guy and his ex broke up was because she was lying to him... FOR TWO WHOLE F-ING YEARS!!!!! AND HE STILL THINKS HE LOVES HER!!! and he still thinks that she loves him too...

I told him that he thinks he loves her cause the times that were good were really good and he didn't want to let go...

i'll add more later.... tell me what you think.  

[The Chexed Nut]

Hm. I can't exactly offer any advice having not been in a relationship; however, I have seen plenty of them fall apart. My friend has recently gone through what you're going through atm: the guy she was with was everything to her and then BAM! Like a sledgehammer, he went and broke up with her because he still had feelings for his ex.

It pretty much boils down to: "Why are you dating them when you are aware of your feelings for your past relations?" See, I'm a bitter girl when it comes to this sort of thing, so, I can only offer an understanding of your situation.

If I were you, I would get rid of him. It's almost like, "I did all that work for nothing? That's crap." Whatever. Lol, don't listen to a 17 yr. old. Pay attention to the adults.  

[Xanatos Forever]

Ignore this post.

stare No, I'm dead ******** serious, just ignore it.

So a few weeks ago I put a tiny blurb mentioning I was single. She was one of the few physical girlfriends I've had, and I really don't care how pathetic that sounds right now. She was a friend before we started dating, and I ended up falling in love with her. Stupid, I guess. She's been on and off with her first boyfriend, and I guess I figured since he moved far away, and she was sick of how he treated her, she would finally be able to let someone else try and be a good partner. We reached the "exclusively dating" scenario, where we're not seeing other people, but we're not openly declared rolleyes .

I take her out to prom, and things seem to be going good. About a week later, she wants to break up, saying we're too different and our religions would conflict and stuff. Maybe I was stupid for not arguing. Probably. But I figured she was just unsure still and was worried about getting close to me, I guess...I dunno...so I said okay, we'll see other people. I don't mind that at all, no.

Here's what's bugging me. The very weekend before, her ex is in town and she goes to hang out with him. I'm not gonna try and stop her, I trust that nothing would happen. I brought it up with her when she breaks up, and she swears he's got nothing to do with it. Okay...

A few weeks later, I find out from a friend that her ex is living in her house right now...my friend is only saying what he knows and what he observes, and wholly admits he could be wrong. I'm telling myself it's all one big ******** coincidence...but if I find out otherwise...ha ha ha! Betrayal rolleyes

[Reiku Alche]

~sighs~ I feel just terrible now, for some reason. Everything I hear and think of nowadays seems to remind me of her, all the time I was with her, all this time I've been away, and how just weak it is of me to have not forgotten my feelings by now. . .

It kills me that I know she'll never speak to me with a kind sincerity in her voice, that we can never be friends again. I know that's probably for the best, since she did try to screw me over and turn all my friends against me. . . But I just can't stay mad at her. . . I hate how forgiving I am. . . I could forgive anyone, no matter what they do to me and that's a problem. . .

Even more so, is the problem that I'd still happily do anything for her. . . And, even if I didn't want to, I feel as though I'd take an innumerable amount of pain, in her place if it meant she'd be unharmed and maybe look at me and smile like she used to. . . Ugh. . . I sicken myself ~facepalm~ Why does everything still have to revolve around her?[/huge self-pity post] Feel free to ignore it if you want, I'm not really expecting feedback or anything. I just kind of wanted to vent.  

[Jafthasleftthebuilding]

Get a shovel, dig a hole, put a box with your feelings for her inside the hole, bury the box, and move on.

And of course, don't take me seriously. biggrin

Oh, reminding yourself to have common sense helps too.  

[~DR.MOOFASA~]

Mugen Nagrom

~DR.MOOFASA~

Mugen Nagrom

Wanting to be cloud isnt so bad, for awhile when I was a kid I wanted to be Sonic the Hedgehog rofl

aww, that's cute. 4laugh
i used to want to be sailor jupiter. ninja

Sailor Jupiter?wha huh? I used to watch sailor moon for awhile but only because I like hot chicks in skirts...transformation scene= soft core for kids

for kids? rofl dude, sailor moon's transformations were soft core porn for fully growm, older MEN in japan. the colorful censoring of the nakedness didn't happen in japan. originally, you just saw their nudity. whee
... and i thought the hot chicks in skirts looked awesome = wanted to look like that. biggrin plus be able to kick a** and cook awesomely and skate like her. 4laugh *still such a ridiculous fangirl of sailor jupiter*  

[Mugen Nagrom]

~DR.MOOFASA~

Mugen Nagrom

~DR.MOOFASA~

Mugen Nagrom

Wanting to be cloud isnt so bad, for awhile when I was a kid I wanted to be Sonic the Hedgehog rofl

aww, that's cute. 4laugh
i used to want to be sailor jupiter. ninja

Sailor Jupiter?wha huh? I used to watch sailor moon for awhile but only because I like hot chicks in skirts...transformation scene= soft core for kids

for kids? rofl dude, sailor moon's transformations were soft core porn for fully growm, older MEN in japan. the colorful censoring of the nakedness didn't happen in japan. originally, you just saw their nudity. whee
... and i thought the hot chicks in skirts looked awesome = wanted to look like that. biggrin plus be able to kick a** and cook awesomely and skate like her. 4laugh *still such a ridiculous fangirl of sailor jupiter*

Ok Doc, now Im really confused, wait whats ur gender?  

[Trish the Stalker]

She's a girl, silly. Mugen, is your real name Morgan, perchance?

Onto angsting:

I did something stupid this morning. I'm leaving for BC later today and I stayed at my boyfriend's last night. Of course last night I was done work at midnight and he had work at 9 and probably wouldn't be home before I left... which led to not much happening last night, not even talking or cuddling. Just falling asleep. Which of course I assumed he'd know to make up for by giving up some of his time in the morning before work. And of course since I didn't say anything about wanting to have a few extra minutes with him this morning, he rolled over after hitting the snooze button twice at 10 after 8 and softly crooned in my ear "C'mon, I'll be ready in ten minutes, get up." So I got all mad that he didn't know I wanted some extra time this morning and ended up ruining the time we had by being sulky.

Even still he's gonna try to get off work early so that he can see me. I'm such a whiney brat...  

[Mugen Nagrom]

La Belle Isolde

She's a girl, silly. Mugen, is your real name Morgan, perchance?

OH NOES IVE BEEN FOUND OUT! MISSION ABORT MISSION ABORT!  

[Large Inmate]

I hate my ******** brain.  

[Trish the Stalker]

Xanatos Forever

Ignore this post.

stare No, I'm dead ******** serious, just ignore it.

So a few weeks ago I put a tiny blurb mentioning I was single. She was one of the few physical girlfriends I've had, and I really don't care how pathetic that sounds right now. She was a friend before we started dating, and I ended up falling in love with her. Stupid, I guess. She's been on and off with her first boyfriend, and I guess I figured since he moved far away, and she was sick of how he treated her, she would finally be able to let someone else try and be a good partner. We reached the "exclusively dating" scenario, where we're not seeing other people, but we're not openly declared rolleyes .

I take her out to prom, and things seem to be going good. About a week later, she wants to break up, saying we're too different and our religions would conflict and stuff. Maybe I was stupid for not arguing. Probably. But I figured she was just unsure still and was worried about getting close to me, I guess...I dunno...so I said okay, we'll see other people. I don't mind that at all, no.

Here's what's bugging me. The very weekend before, her ex is in town and she goes to hang out with him. I'm not gonna try and stop her, I trust that nothing would happen. I brought it up with her when she breaks up, and she swears he's got nothing to do with it. Okay...

A few weeks later, I find out from a friend that her ex is living in her house right now...my friend is only saying what he knows and what he observes, and wholly admits he could be wrong. I'm telling myself it's all one big ******** coincidence...but if I find out otherwise...ha ha ha! Betrayal rolleyes

[Celes Xe]

Mugen Nagrom

La Belle Isolde

She's a girl, silly. Mugen, is your real name Morgan, perchance?

OH NOES IVE BEEN FOUND OUT! MISSION ABORT MISSION ABORT!

Too late now!  

[Mugen Nagrom]

Celes Xe

Mugen Nagrom

La Belle Isolde

She's a girl, silly. Mugen, is your real name Morgan, perchance?

OH NOES IVE BEEN FOUND OUT! MISSION ABORT MISSION ABORT!

Too late now!

Too late for what? wink