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Posted: Thu Jun 26, 2008 8:59 pm
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Posted: Thu Jun 26, 2008 9:04 pm
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Posted: Thu Jun 26, 2008 9:21 pm
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Posted: Thu Jun 26, 2008 9:37 pm
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Posted: Sat Jun 28, 2008 9:26 pm
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Posted: Mon Jun 30, 2008 11:48 pm
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Posted: Tue Jul 01, 2008 1:37 pm
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Posted: Wed Jul 16, 2008 10:08 pm
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It's pathetic... I can't believe... after two years... I still haven't gotten over that jerk.
For the people that remember, I've fallen in love with someone here two years ago, someone from England. He helped me see how special I actually was, and how beautiful I really was, but... I was too needy; I wanted him too much. I want to say that he left, without saying goodbye, because he fell in love with someone else, but I... I think I know that he left because I really wanted and needed him...
I would've done anything for him, and would still do anything for him now. I would hold him in my arms when he was in pain, which he seemed to be, in his own little way. When he went through withdrawals from pained addictions, I told him I would be there to comfort him and calm him down and wait for him to relax and sleep. I'd bandage his wounds, if I had the chance, everytime he got hurt, and I would kiss the scars that he had all over from a tormented past, in hopes that I could help him have a better future. I loved him, and I hated that I made him go away, but I hate it more that I can't forget about him.
I gave him my heart two years ago, for he was the first to make me see that I was alright just... being myself. I've never gotten it back, because he left, he never had a chance to return it, or tell me that he no longer loves me. Still now, I foolishly wait and hope that I'll be able to see him again, or sometimes I imagine exploring Germany, England, all places he would be, in hope that I can find him, to finally hug him again, and cry because it hurts so much to be away from him, without him ever saying good bye or giving back my heart.
If only he knew, that I've tried to find other people, but I just can't give out love when someone else has that certain love right now.
...I wish I could find him.. and tell him again how much I love him and care about him... and... ask for my heart back, because it hurts too much to remember that he still has my heart, and I can't go on without it... without him...
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Posted: Wed Jul 16, 2008 10:16 pm
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Posted: Wed Jul 16, 2008 10:18 pm
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Posted: Wed Jul 16, 2008 10:18 pm
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Posted: Wed Jul 16, 2008 10:19 pm
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Posted: Thu Jul 17, 2008 6:38 pm
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Posted: Thu Jul 17, 2008 9:55 pm
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Posted: Thu Jul 17, 2008 9:58 pm
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