I have a problem. URGENT

[Testicular Diabeetus]

It's a bunch of problems in one actually.
My friend says that I have a spirit of paranoia and anger looming over me. She said it isn't a demon just a spirit. Something like that.

I'm still getting overly angry and I still yell and loose my temper easily.
I know that it hurts my family but... I dunno..

I was also pretty stupid as a teen and I'm so afraid of things like.
Being alone in public.
Being around guys.
People arguing.
People fighting.
I'm afraid of crowds.
I'm afraid of families.
I'm also afraid of bring shame to my family.

I know that God forgave me but I don't know how to forgive myself.
I'm so tired of being paranoid all of the time.

Can anyone give me some scriptures?
I need comfort.
I also don't know how to ask God for help. I know you ask him but... I dunno. ;_;

I'm a mess.

I am so tired of feeling like crap and dirt all of the time.
I'm so tired of being depressed. ;_;

 

[emorhconom esor]

No where in scripture does it say emotions and disorders are spirits. Most of that is mainly worrying what other's think about you, which all teens do. It sounds like you need to see a psyciatrist since you maybe suffering from a disorder. It will help a lot, trust me I go to one myself for my ADHD. Also try not focusing on what others think about you and focus on what God sees in you.  

[Testicular Diabeetus]

I agree.
I've talked to my mom about seeing one but we cant afford it and she doesn't think that I need to see one.
Besides, God can set me free from this crap.

*sigh*
I want to ask God for help but i really don't even know what my problem is.

 

[Testicular Diabeetus]

I read Psalm 71 and 69, and 70
All of it.

It helped me feel better.

 

[starry night-163]

You don't need words to ask God for help, he knows everything without effort and knows what you need before you ask
Matthew 6:8
Do not be like them, for your Father knows what you need before you ask him.
sometimes silence is all you need.
Romans 8:26
In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans.
Here watch this http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lD_pCr_Xrnc
As for your anger and forgiveness issues I have those same problems, well forgiveness isn't much of my problem. Oh and I don't think it's a spirit/demon. Here watch this sermon on anger, it's called be angry and do not sin http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mIMbvnXf3FA As for your forgivness issues I'll get back to you on that one. I'll be praying for you =]  

[Testicular Diabeetus]

Thanks.
I watched some of the sermon, I liked it. I'll watch the rest tomorrow.
Those scriptures also helped a lot.

Also thanks for praying for me. ^^

 

[Azkeel]

You need a human; not a robot controlled by well... nevermind. I do feel your pain.  

[Azkeel]

Remember to have no respect for man!!! (Humanity)  

[emorhconom esor]

Testicular Diabetes

I agree.
I've talked to my mom about seeing one but we cant afford it and she doesn't think that I need to see one.
Besides, God can set me free from this crap.

*sigh*
I want to ask God for help but i really don't even know what my problem is.

Sometimes God wants us to have disorders so we can help others with the same disorder.  

[Riku Elmwick]

Testicular Diabetes

It's a bunch of problems in one actually.
My friend says that I have a spirit of paranoia and anger looming over me. She said it isn't a demon just a spirit. Something like that.

I'm still getting overly angry and I still yell and loose my temper easily.
I know that it hurts my family but... I dunno..

I was also pretty stupid as a teen and I'm so afraid of things like.
Being alone in public.
Being around guys.
People arguing.
People fighting.
I'm afraid of crowds.
I'm afraid of families.
I'm also afraid of bring shame to my family.

I know that God forgave me but I don't know how to forgive myself.
I'm so tired of being paranoid all of the time.

Can anyone give me some scriptures?
I need comfort.
I also don't know how to ask God for help. I know you ask him but... I dunno. ;_;

I'm a mess.

I am so tired of feeling like crap and dirt all of the time.
I'm so tired of being depressed. ;_;

It isn't weird to have thoughs fears trust me I have them to. Also heres a scripture that helped me get through my hard, depressing times:
Dont worry about anything, instead pray about everything. Philippians 4:6  

[faithful quenga]

I am a sinner... "1 John 1:8"

I don't think you're paranoid you sound like a normal person to me. Many people have issues and there is no need to feel ashamed of them. I think it sounds like you need some people that you can talk to about your problems. do you have a youth group or other kind of group to talk to people your own age who are also Christians? Maybe try asking your pastor if there is someone in the church you can talk to about your issues in a kind of like counseling setting. Most larger churches have counselors of their own, though I'm not sure what they may cost.

I deal with my own issues of anger by attending a ministry called Celebrate Recovery for my anger, trust issues, and codependency. It's kind of like a support group and they have many different tools to help those with hurts habits and hang-ups overcome them through God. I've found that talking things through with other people can help me sort out the issues I have. It helps to have someone there to listen.

I also agree with gothic, we are given things by God so that we can be a person who overcomes and uses those issues to help other people.

... Saved by God's grace "Acts 15:11"

 

[Testicular Diabeetus]

Thanks guys this really helps.
I feel a lot better now.

I have been talking to my friends mother and a friend from a church that I used to go too. I'll look and see if there is any program at the church that I can join. I'd love to see a doctor or counselor but I cant afford it and neither can my parents. Plus they think that nothing is wrong with me. =/ But I think that God is more than capable of freeing me from these issues.

I have been reading a lot of scriptures and I have been trying to speak positive things instead of negative things.
It's hard but I'll get through it.

Today I'm going to go to a store by myself.
I'm going to face that fear.
God doesn't give us a spirit of fear, but one of love, power, and sound Judgment. So I'm refusing to let the devil hold me back.

 

[WoodSorrelWitch]

Testicular Diabetes

I agree.
I've talked to my mom about seeing one but we cant afford it and she doesn't think that I need to see one.
Besides, God can set me free from this crap.

*sigh*
I want to ask God for help but i really don't even know what my problem is.

He sure can set us free of anything that He wants to; that IS in His power.
But remember that Luke was a doctor?
Doctors (and psychologists) exist because God has given us the information and knowledge for them to exist (don't know if that makes sense ^^; )
It is okay to see a doctor for physical problems and it is also okay to go see a counselor for issues we have in life. Because often times, God works through those people to give us the help that He knows we need.

As for affording one, I know they can be expensive. Are you going to school currently? Often times you can see a school counselor for free.

I hope that helped a bit - sick person is sick so I'm not thinking as clear as I normally would ^^;;