I cannot find him....

[Pegasus Melodic Harmony]

Hi. I'm not all that great about writing about myself. It's hard and can be embarrassing but here I go! :3
Before you read down, I do warn, I like to write but I may repeat myself because I'm horrible at writing about me in general. I hope you find this informational and maybe very helpful.





Index ( By Colors):
Basics - American Rose
Personal - Amber
Future - Arylide yellow
Current - Dollar Bill
Personality & Likes - Robin Egg Blue
What I'm Looking For - Wisteria
Final Closing - Rose


My name is Kristyn. Yes it is spelled correctly. I have a unique name for my unique personality. I'm 18, and a senior in high school. I rein in Texas. . .Glorious Texas.(Sarcastically). I'm about 5'7 in height, which is people are shorter I feel like an amazon to them. . . most of the time. My eyes are a deep dark brown that some have said remind them of dark chocolate. My hair is a dirty blond/ light brown. In different lights, I have different highlights. Either strawberry red or pretty gold. I wear glasses and I'm not a twig. I'm plush but not super heavy. . . (sorry if that is a turn off. . . many people thing it is.) To see a picture, pm me, not only for the picture but if you like me too.




Sadly, due to being bullied through my schooling (which stopped in high school) I do have self esteem issues. They aren't bad, but when I get called pretty or beautiful I blush and think it is the sweet that you say that. Many guys don't like that about me, but I just need help. It's grown a lot since I started High School. I'll be starting college in the fall, pursuing my love of music by going into music education. Yes for all you guys, I'm a band nerd, and a choral geek. I'm pretty decent too, if I must say so myself. I'm pretty high up in my class so I'm no dummy. I won't say I've had a million relationships. I've had 1. It lasted 2 years, and . . . if you get to know me you may find out how it ended.


When I go into college I want to major in Music. Through my schooling I've always loved being around music, be it instruments or singing. I've even taught a few lessons to people. They seem to like how I make it a game for them. I teach 6th graders, but I want to be a a high school director. Either of instrumental or choral instruction. I wish to have support through college through love, and I'll give the support right back. I hope to get married some day and have a family in a nice home and never have to worry about big finical troubles like my family is having right now. I dream about what it will be like, and it's what I want. I don't want mind games from people anymore.



This month is the biggest month of my Senior year. Prom, Graduation, and banquets. It goes in this kind of order. Choir Banquet, Band Banquet, Prom, Graduation. I have concerts, and award things all through and through but eh. Aside from that, I possibly, if it went far enough in 3 weeks or more, find someone to go with. But I don't want them to go and then turn around and say bye bye. I've had people tell me "Oh you're to ugly to even get a friend to go to prom with you." That hurts and it makes me sad yes. I always wanna find someone who would look at them and say "say it again and I'll punch you in the face" then grab my hand and we walk away. Whoops. Sorry, a little imagination got in there.



I'm artistic, but I wouldn't call my doodles art. I am big into anime, besides my library of Manga. I've a 4 year vet of San Japan, this year will make it 5.I like horror films, but I'm easily scared. So if I watch them alone I freak out with my panda plush, but if I were with someone that was special I'd most likely nuzzle close and wanna feel protected. Silly right? I'm the corny type I suppose. I'll play almost any video game, but my favorite series are Soul Caliber, Mario, and Harvest Moon. I'll play anything, but I struggle with 1st-person shooters. I just go and shoot everything in sight. X3 I like to read, and have been on a run of reading the Maximum Ride series. (I love Iggy and Fang.) I like to go out to pools or beaches. They are always so much fun. I like star gazing and finding constellations. I can be a human nerd. Not just a band, choir, or anime nerd. I won't tell anymore. :3 You'll just have to find out.



My mind has been poisoned by not only anime but the stories and movies of Disney. So in terms, I wish I could be like a princess. Not with the "Oh save me" damsel things. I'm not that fragile. I always secretly wish my life would be like an anime. You know, guy and girl have crushes on each other, or how their love kindles till finally someone freaking yells it at them to kiss. I wish that would happen. I'm looking for someone 18+ who isn't just wanting something that lasts maybe a few months. I want something meaningful. I know, some will think I'm young for it but I don't wanna believe that. I want someone who would freak out if I'm crying or hurt and be worried. If I was cold would walk with his arms around me or put his jacket on me. If I was scared would hold me and tell me everything is alright. It's stupid but I've always dream I'll find him. I guess I may not. He needs to support me, and I'll support him back in what ever he wants to do in life. No matter what it is. I like someone who would bring you flowers when you are preforming or just because of spur of the moment. Even if it was a poem, I'd love it. I want someone who would say "Why don't we cook something and watch a movie?" And when we fail at cooking (unless we're lucky) laugh and order pizza. Money has no place in a relationship unless you want to do something special. I do special things. I bought the only guy I've been with (before we broke up) a car. I saved for a year and he told me how much he wanted it. It was a gift. Sorry if it sounds so ridiculous and most likely it's why I don't have someone but it's what I like. It's something I would like. It isn't mandatory but I like to smile and laugh. And now I've ranted.



Sorry about my long rant. . .I guess I can talk about myself a lot. Sorry! D: Thank you for reading it all and I hope to find someone. I do hope. So thank you! It means something to me when people read it all. It means that they are trying just as hard as everyone else is when you are trying to find love. Oh! And the pictures are all from photobucket. I like to make things pretty so I did. :3 Plus the rainbow! You can post a reply here, or Pm me. If I'm online, you can IM me. Hope to have good luck. Thank you again!

 

[Parth Makeo]

Kagome Uzumaki

Sorry if it took me longer to reply than most. It was all because I had to read everything more than once to make sure i got everything down...

Though you have a unique name, I am unfortunate enough to be stuck with one of the joke names. For I am Raymond. I am actually 21, but three year gaps do not matter so much to me. Sadly, I reside in the realm of Connecticut, A one hour ride from New York and close to the shore. I am surprisingly smaller than you, standing at 5'5 in height. My eyes are EXACTLY like your color and my hair is dark brown to almost black from time to time. Unlike you, however, I am skinny and wear no glasses. My skinny body is due to many reasons later on. And I do not mind if you have some weight. It's all inside.

I as well suffered from an even greater bully problem. Mine has lasted through my twelve years of school. It is considered the curse I was born with. The teachers had it out for me for the first three years of school and all the kids made fun of me for...
A: Being small
B: Picking on my weaknesses.
C: Just trying to be cool.
The bully problem has evolved overtime and I remember the leader's name to this day and age. I still do not forgive the man, even if he did find my facebook. Why so horrible? He was the only person in my life to ever pelt me with rocks on one unfortunate day to the beach. No reason other than it was me. Nothing to fuel it. He saw me. Threw rocks. End of story.
Since the bully problem, I have been to a private school and then a 'special' one. Even then the damage was done. My self esteem has grown to where if i made a minor error or missed something small, I actually hit myself in not doing it. Through that life in school, i had a crush but she was taken from me before I could get my courage back. All because of the bullies. And i had a friend. A best Friend...But he too succumbed to the fate of the wrong crowd. But he did it because they wanted me to be a part of them (smoking and drugs so to say). In turn, he saved my life and I never can forget him at all.
Hey....this almost sounds like an anime. but now I am just being too random now. So I have had no relationships in my life at all. And no true friends...

My future was there. It was in front of me. I was one who did not care for much into my college education. But I hope one day my writings will be noticed and I could make at least one good book series for the shelves. And one people will remember. But yet...I have been going up and down with my emotions. I am no longer sure of myself. My family barely supports or brings up my writing and it makes me feel like 'Why should I keep writing if no one will give me support?'

I will not say that I am alone. Sure i live with one or two family members, but I will soon move out in the future. My current way of life has been the same since leaving high school. And i have a part time job. It is only because of my own will to live I am here still. I would never give up. I can never give up. I know that even in the darkest hour, I can pull through. I just have to keep trying.

First on the list: Anime/Manga
When I hear the word Anime, I think of my favorites and classics.
Cowboy bebop, Trigun, Astroboy, Slayers series, Dragonball and Z, Big-O, Sister Princess, Clannad being the most loved, Chobits, Akira, and many more.
Upon Manga, I think of series like Chibi Vampire, some of the animes above in manga form, Yotsuba, And other random/online scanned ones to read.
Second: Video Games
I am an avid World of Warcraft player. My character is in my signature among others. But outside of the MMO land i play various games.
all but sports and most simulations. I have played from Super Mario on NES and SNES to Borderlands and even Marvel Vs Capcom. I even played DDR back when Arcades were kicking in the later 90's. I am not the biggest game nerd but I do enjoy a real good game when I play it. I should try to get my n64 working and play Paper mario once more.
Third, I watch movies and shows. Mainly reruns of old days. Cartoons and many others. The only issue is I now sound more like a geek with zits and all. But i can truly say, I am not dirty. I do have more to say but I can't type them all out. Otherwise I might fall asleep and type random words.

My taste in women have been 'weird' where I live. Not one girl can be compared to what you are looking for. Most are kind of...Ghetto and snooty rich people with money to spend and...UGG I JUST WANT TO SMACK THEM FOR NOT REALIZING HOW SPOILED THEY ARE! Sorry... Sorry...that is not the right attitude. I would enjoy a woman who could fall for my romantic side. Laugh at my stupid side. And if scared, would indeed have someone to come to as I would require her.

And yet...We are so far. I have never done long distance relationships but I am afraid I might break your heart anyways. Times like this, I wished I was living in a more Anime infested area like Canada, or the west coast. For the east barely has any clubs. Plus...Believe it or not, I hate to drive cars. When I get behind the wheel i fail horribly. I was made for motorcycles or carpooling. Plus, if you own a car with 4 doors but you are the only one who drives it...SHAME ON YOU FOR WASTING SPACE!

Why must life always keep the good ones away from the north east and keep all the horrible ones?