⎾ MOROSIS ⏌

[Pure Acid Dreamer]

Jakob didn't know how to feel anymore. He was upset from their fighting but also comforted by Kieran's sweet words. He wanted to believe that he was telling the truth and really did want to be with him. However by the tone of his words and his actions, he just didn't know. Sitting at the table, he continued to nibble on his food before sending back his reply. Pushing away his tray, he then laid down his head. He didn't know what else he could say at this point. He was tired of texting, it wasn't working.

As he sat there, he felt a mix of emotions stirring inside him. Part of him wanted to cry, another wanted a hug, and another just wanted to sleep the rest of the day away. Turning his head, he stared out the window and listened to the music playing overhead. Another few minutes passed before he received a text message from Kieran. Sitting up, he turned over his phone to read the message. His cheeks warmed as he read his sweet, but also demanding message. Sighing, he pulled the device towards him. "Fine, I'm asking...Will you come get me?" he sent back.

Jakob didn't know what Kieran had been doing in all this time but he hoped he was of enough sound mind to drive. He too wanted to see him. If Kieran didn't want to go back home, they could meet somewhere, anywhere. So long as it was face to face, that was all that mattered to him. He really couldn't stand any more of the waiting around. He wanted them to be able to just hash this out and move on.

 

[xDarkWinterx]

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Kirean didn't know if Miguel would give into his demand. It was worth the try after all he couldn't continue to converse over texting. He waited to see if Miguel would give in. Kieran didn't have to wait long. He heard his phone go off again. Kirean read the text smiling lightly. Where are you? He asked curiously, setting his phone aside.

While he waited for a response, Kirean recapped his bottle of alcohol. He set it aside on the bedside table. Kieran hadn't drunk much of it to bother his driving, at the most a few shots. He stood from the bed to grab clean clothes from his closet. Kirean was probably sweaty from his small work out but he didn't care. He grabbed a clean black t-shirt, along with jeans from his closet. Kieran pulled out his boots as well, setting them next to his bed.

He went into the bathroom to spray some fresh cologne on. Kieran brushed his teeth as well. He finished in the bathroom returning to his bedroom. Kirean stripped out of his shorts and went about getting dressed while he waited for Miguel's text for a location.

 

[Pure Acid Dreamer]

Jakob didn't mind giving in to the others demand. However it was easier to ask Kieran if he'd come to get him. After all, between the two of them he was the only one with a car. After sending the the text, he brought his tray back towards himself. Even though he wasn't entirely hungry after their conversation, he didn't feel like wasting his food either. He picked at his remaining fries, dipping them in the ketchup as he waited. It wasn't long before his phone buzzed again. Jakob's eyes widened at the man's reply. Here? He was coming here? Oh s**t, he thought.

Looking around the lobby, Jakob saw nothing to indicate an address. It was just a bunch of trendy lighting and faux Ikea-style furniture. Closing out the messages, he instead pulled up Google Maps and allowed the locator to find him. Before sending, he looked out the window to make sure the street view matched. He didn't want to send Kieran somewhere he wasn't. When he was sure, he took a screen shot of his location and sent it to the man. He hoped it was enough information for Kieran to find him. Even more, he hoped that he would be here soon.

 

[xDarkWinterx]

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Of course Kirean was coming to get Miguel, he had asked hadn't he. Finishing getting dressed, he heard his phone go off again. Kieran opened it up to see map directions to a McDonald's. He wasn't sure how Miguel got there, nor did he care. Kirean grabbed his wallet, keys and phone leaving his bedroom. He didn't bother to tell Abel where he was going after all it wasn't his business.

Heading downstairs, Kieran left through the front door to his car. He unlocked it with the keyfob. Kieran opened the drivers side and slipped inside. He buckled himself in as he started the car. Once settled, Kieran pulled out of the driveway.

As he drove, Kieran hadn't bothered to text Miguel back. He figured showing up was plenty a response. The drive to the McDonald's seemed long although it was twenty minutes at the most. Kieran eventually pulled into the driveway as he parked his car. He turned it off getting out as he unbuckled.

Locking the door behind himself, Kieran made his way toward the front door. He entered it as he glanced around to find Miguel. Kieran spotted him in the corner by himself and made his way toward him.

 

[Pure Acid Dreamer]

Sending off the text, Jakob had nothing but time to himself. He watched as the notification indication that Kieran had read his text appeared, but he was not given a reply. Jakob waited and waited only to be given nothing. He pouted slightly and continued to eat what was left. Still, he was hungry. Dumping his trash and returning the tray, Jakob then went back to the counter to order again. This he only ordered a large fry. He figured it would be enough to keep him occupied.

After paying for the fries, he waited by the counter. A few minutes passed before he was handed another tray with the fries. Taking his morsels, he went back to his corner. Jakob nibbled on the crispy treats, but he was starting to get bored. What happened to Kieran? He thought about texting him, but didn't want to come off as needy. Sitting back in his chair, he crossed his legs and stared out the window. It was times like this he really wish he knew how to drive. Back in Brazil and Germany, he never bothered. The towns he lived in were pretty popular and had a lot of cheap options for getting around. America was not so cheap. The buses were okay, same for the train. Though he quickly learned that only a few cities had actual subways. And the cabs were highway robbery. He often thought about getting a bike or scooter. But who would take him seriously if he showed up to all his jobs riding that?

As Jakob continued to daydream, time had passed and still there was no word from Kieran. He was about ready to accept his silence as a resounding no. Hearing the entry door, Jakob looked over to see how had come in. To his surprise it was none other than the person he'd been waiting to hear from. His heart started beating rapidly as he suddenly felt nervous. Standing from his seat, he gave a small wave as Kieran came closer. Swallowing, he waited until the man was right in front of him before speaking. "Hey." he said softly, looking up the male.

 

[xDarkWinterx]

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Entering the fast food place, Kirean walked towards Miguel who had stood to greet him. He had found it amusing after all he had seen the defeated look before noticing him. Kirean wasn't much of a fast food junkie. He found it to all be too greasy. Kieran though didn't question it. He saw the nervousness as Miguel spoke his simple word. Kieran smiled lightly in return just as nervous. "Hello." He replied glancing down. Kieran saw the half eaten fries. He wasn't sure if Miguel wanted to stay or leave, he was fine with either. "Shall I sit or should we go?" Kirean asked not rushing Miguel though he found if he wanted food this wasn't appetizing.

 

[Pure Acid Dreamer]

It was impossible not for him to be nervous. After all the things they said, and how angry each had been. It felt surreal to have Kieran standing in front of him greeting him so casually. Watching him smile made his heart ache as he wasn't entirely sure if it was out of habit or sincerely meant for him. How badly he wanted to reach out to touch him. But he felt like it wasn't allowed. As the man questioned him, Jakob shrugged his shoulders. "Whichever is fine...we can stay if you're hungry." he replied. Jakob didn't take Kieran for a fan of fast food, but he thought offering would be better than just telling him to go out right. After all, he did all this way just to get him. He didn't know what Kieran did all afternoon without him. Even though it had only been a few hours since he saw him last, it felt like it had been days. It was stupid, but he really did miss him. He didn't know how today had gotten so screwed up, but he hated it. He wished he had a time machine just so they could start the day all over and try again. Maybe then they could avoid this stupid fight.

 

[xDarkWinterx]

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At the moment touching didn't seem like a good idea. Kirean wanted to reach out and pull Miguel closer but he didn't. He kept his distance for the moment. Kirean questioned Miguel, he listened to his response. "I guess, I could eat… Let me go order something I'll be right back." He replied as he stepped away from Miguel. Kirean made his way toward the counter to give his order. He didn't usually eat fast food so he wasn't sure what was good here. Kieran opted for a quarter pounder with cheese minus the onions with a large fry and coke. He paid the girl at the counter taking his cup and filling it up at the dispensing machine. Kirean finished while he waited, returning to sit down with Miguel.

 

[Pure Acid Dreamer]

How badly he wished Kieran would reach out to him. But he could see his hesitance, just like his own. As the man questioned him, he soon answered. Jakob didn't want to come off as desperate or needy. Even though that was exactly what he was at this moment. As Kieran spoke again, Jakob nodded and watched his retreating back. Once he was far enough, he practically collapsed back into his chair. Pocketing his phone, he then crossed his legs and waited while Kieran ordered. The minutes passing felt like hours. But he tried not to let his impatience show. In an attempt to calm himself, Jakob picked up one of his half forgotten french fries. He stared down at the red box, lost in his own head. A couple of minutes later Kieran returned to him. Looking up at him, he brushed one of his curls back as he waited for him to sit down. "So before we start....uh, I just wanna say thanks for meeting me here...I know it's kind of out of the way." he started awkwardly. It wasn't his best opener, but he was trying. "Where did you go this afternoon?" he asked.

 

[xDarkWinterx]

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Of course Kirean couldn't help but be hesitant. He didn't want to rush things again. Kirean wanted to talk after all he'd been driving aimlessly around with nothing but his thoughts to plague him. He returned to the table taking a seat across from Miguel. Kieran kept his hands to himself folded on the table. He listened as Miguel thanked him. Kirean shook his head, "It's alright, like I said I wanted to see you." He commented softly as he watched Miguel. Kieran heard him question him. "I drove around for a couple of hours before going home which is about the time I returned your texts." He replied as he sat there. Kirean knew they needed to talk which is what they were going to do.

 

[Pure Acid Dreamer]

Jakob was patient as Kieran sat across from him. He took note of the way he kept his distance and his hands to himself. He tried not to think about just how badly he wanted to reach out and grab one with his own. Instead, he folded his hands in his lap both to resist the temptation. After speaking, he watched as the man shook his head before responding. His soft tone caused him to smile a little, but it didn't last. He hated knowing that Kieran was out there struggling for hours on end. It sounded exhausting and he wanted to question him for some better insight. For the moment though, he chose to leave it. Nodding silently, Jakob brushed back a stray curl from his face. "Did you...umm...do you at least read my earlier texts?" he asked curiously. Jakob knew they didn't matter that much. But he felt he needed to know if the man had been ignoring him the entire time or just until he got home.

 

[xDarkWinterx]

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Kieran hadn't found the idea of driving around exhausting, he merely needed space and peace. At the moment in time, he had been pissed at Miguel which is why he had kicked him out of his car. Kieran wanted away from Miguel though he had gotten over it. He needed to talk to him about everything which is why he was here now. Kieran could choose to stay away from Miguel forever but that wasn't possible. The situation outweighed his need and want for Miguel. He wasn't mad specifically at Miguel but more with himself.

Answering Miguel's question, he watched as he played with his hair. Kieran listened as Miguel questioned him again. He nodded slightly, "Yes, I read them when I got home." Kirean replied honestly as he soon heard his name called. He excused himself to stand as he went to get his tray of food. Kieran returned after a short time with his food and small cups of ketchup. He sat back down across from Miguel. His stomach growled softly after all he hadn't eaten since breakfast this morning. Kieran opened his box containing his burger and bit into it.

 

[Pure Acid Dreamer]

Sitting across from Kieran, he waited for his answer. He was positive about what the answer might be, but he wanted to hear it from Kieran first. If he'd been reading his messages as they came in, it would hurt. But knowing he was ignored hurt as well. He hated himself for not telling Kieran sooner. But at the same time he thought it was the right thing to do. Kieran's reaction had only proved his point. Pushing away a stray hair, he waited. Hearing Kieran's answer both made him relieved and a little hurt. He was glad the man was texting and driving in his rage. But at the same time, it would have been nice to know what he was thinking and where he was going. All day he had these very worries and the one person he wanted to ask the most wasn't there to answer.

A few moments passed and Kieran's name was called from the counter. Jakob nodded quietly as the male rose from his seat and watched him cross the dining room to retrieve his food. After getting some condiments, the male returned to the table. Jakob didn't rush him. Again he smiled as he could hear Kieran's stomach growling. He assumed that meant he hadn't eaten since this morning. Picking up his cup, Jakob sipped his drink while allowing the man to eat. It gave him an excuse to think about where their conversation might go and what exactly it was that Kieran wanted to see him about. He felt like this was their break up conversation and they both just stalling for the inevitable. He could only hope that he was wrong.

 

[xDarkWinterx]

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Kirean had no intention of breaking up with Miguel. He merely wanted to apologise for his behavior. Kieran though was worried about Miguel. He knew Miguel had said he loved him but could he love him and be faithful? Kirean didn't judge Miguel for it but if he wanted to sleep around then he wanted to at least be told the truth not be lied to.

He took his seat as he started in on his food. Kieran watched as Miguel sat silently across from him. He munched on his fries as well as he sat there. "Answer me this; can you be in a monogamous relationship?" Kirean asked as he watched Miguel. He wanted to know if he was wasting his time. Kieran didn't care if Miguel wanted multiple partners but he didn't want to be the last to know.

 

[Pure Acid Dreamer]

Jakob didn't want to break up with Kieran. However he had no idea if the man felt the same. At the moment his words and body language seemed to be indicating that they were going to be fine. But at the same time he felt like there was just this cloud of impending doom hanging over them. So it was hard for him to remain calm as he sat there. When he told Kieran he loved him, he meant it. And he had no intentions on taking it back. He loved Kieran and he wanted to be with him.

As they saw there, Jakob sipped on his remaining soda while Kieran ate his own food. A few minutes passed before either of them said anything. Kieran was the first to break that silence. He was a little surprised by his question but not offended. He supposed at this point it should be expected from Kieran. Biting his straw, Jakob looked down at the table as he thought for a moment. Truth be told Kieran was his longest relationship and possibly his first serious one. His other relationships had been so casual, that he wasn't even upset when the other person stopped texting or showing up to dates. He merely took that as a sign that things had run their natural course. "I don't know....I guess I've never really tried." he said, finally speaking up. Setting down his cup, Jakob looked up towards Kieran. "Like I've dated before, but it was just for fun....so neither of us would get mad if the other started eyeing someone else."