⎾ MOROSIS ⏌

[xDarkWinterx]

⋮ ۩ ) • • • ❛ 𝙅𝙪𝙙𝙜𝙚, 𝙅𝙪𝙧𝙮 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙀𝙭𝙚𝙘𝙪𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣𝙚𝙧.❜



Sitting there silently, Abel hadn't expected the conversation to go so well. He had hoped even through the bumps in the conversation. Abel was surprised as Kirean turned the conversation toward him. He hadn't expected it though should have. Kirean wasn't stupid or oblivious to what had been going on behind his back.

Questioning Miguel, Kirean was hardly bothered. He just couldn't help but question Miguel especially with Abel sitting there. Kirean knew Abel wouldn't speak up regardless. He listened as Miguel responded, finding his words amusing. Kirean listened as Miguel continued to speak about a promise he asked of him.

Things had changed, it was obvious from the answer to his question. Kirean though wasn't surprised while not the commitment type Abel was always the better man if he cared for someone. After all, he'd been one of those someone's when they were younger. He however grew up though the love wasn't diminished.

”Your feelings for him don't bother me. Though are you content with the way things are with him?” Kirean asked, wondering if Miguel was content with the way things were with Abel. He didn't blame him though he wanted to know Miguel's true feelings.

 

[Pure Acid Dreamer]

He too was surprised by the males' question. Of all things they were discussing, Jakob would have thought the topic of Abel was one they were not addressing. After all, Kieran had never been very approving of his relations with the male. Not only that, there was no denying that some of the things Jakob had said about Abel back then did not apply today. He suspected the same held true for Abel despite his tight lipped stance.

As he was questioned again, Jakob turned it back on him. He recalled the last time Kieran had brought his feelings for Abel into question. Back then he was certain that it mutually agreed upon that it was just sex. But then more fights happened and each time Abel was there for him in one way or another. He'd seen him in his most vulnerable moments and tended to him when he needed it most. He liked to believe that they were somewhat past the realm of friendship, but without Abel to confirm anything on his end he couldn't say for certain. Jakob listened as Kieran continued to answer his question.

He was surprised to hear that he was okay with his feelings for Abel. Before when he had asked him, he was obviously jealous and did not seem very support of the idea of having to share. However, Jakob did not linger on the thought as he was then questioned again. He frowned a little, not making eye contact with either of them. "No." he said simply. "In the two years since I came home all I get are a few texts, and even fewer phone calls. I understand there is a time distance and traveling is hard. But this is the first I'm seeing you. I offered to help you come visit, suggested I come visit myself, and there was never any time. When you go home will I have to wait another two years for a face-to-face visit? Or will I have to wait even longer?" Jakob couldn't help sounding a little bitter as he spoke. He knew that Abel had not been all that happy on the day he left, but it needed to happen. In some way, he felt as though Abel had been punishing him for leaving.

 

[xDarkWinterx]

⋮ ۩ ) • • • ❛ 𝙅𝙪𝙙𝙜𝙚, 𝙅𝙪𝙧𝙮 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙀𝙭𝙚𝙘𝙪𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣𝙚𝙧.❜



Kirean wasn't thrilled before but did he have a choice now. If he had shown a dislike for their relationship would it change anything. He didn't want to push Miguel away again, especially into Abel's arms. At least if he indulged Miguel's feelings, he hoped it would satisfy him.

As he sat there, Abel wasn't too sure where this line of questioning was going. He couldn't help but feel awkward in the situation. Abel wished Kirean would stop talking. He was almost tempted to cover his mouth and tell him to stop. Abel couldn't help but bounce his leg beneath the table as he was agitated.

Soon Miguel responded as they both sat across from him. Abel listened as Miguel spoke knowing he'd hurt him. However he couldn't hold him back. Indeed the only reason he was here now was because he was worried about him. Abel had thought by keeping him at a distance it would be best for the both of them.

Shifting in the seat, Abel was becoming annoyed with Kirean for forcing such words from. Miguel's lips. ”You are not helping you're situation.” He growled out at Kirean before turning his attention to Miguel. ”Look, I'm sorry…but what do you want from me?” Abel asked, glancing toward Kirean then Miguel. He didn't know what games he was playing.

 

[Pure Acid Dreamer]

Of course Kieran had a right to his opinion on the matter. Would it change much, probably not, or so he hoped. But at the very least Jakob wouldn't have to lie to his face about his feelings towards him. As running away into Abel's arms he doubted such a situation would occur. Even if Abel did hold something for him, not once had he ever expressed it. There never was and never would be a time that he was anything more than a sexual partner for him. That much he knew. Across from him, the male continued to be silent. Jakob wondered if he would add anything to this line of questioning.

Jakob continued to speak candidly. He couldn't help feeling a little upset by the fact that Abel had somewhat ignored him in these last couple of years. He knew it wasn't completely on purpose. He had a business to run, people to manage, and whatever else he did in the shadows. Jakob understood it was hard for him to get away, and what with the time difference it made communications that much harder. But the fact that he could drop everything when he threw a little b***h fit verses the numerous times he had asked prior made him question why he was really here.

When he finished speaking, he heard movement across from him. Jakob looked to see the annoyed expression on Abel's face as he turned his anger and frustrations on to Kieran. For a brief moment he was shocked before that same attitude was thrown his direction. "The truth." he blurted. "I already know I'll never be your boyfriend or your lover. But that doesn't stop you from treating me like one. So tell me, I want to know. How exactly do you actually feel about me?" Bracing himself, he was certain there would be some kind of anger. The last time he'd mentioned being treated like a boyfriend Abel had gotten angry. He remembered the way he had choked him and growled in his face. But as soon as the moment was gone he seemed remorseful of his actions. Jakob wanted to know what he was hiding, what was he so afraid to admit that even now he would not tell him.

 

[xDarkWinterx]

⋮ ۩ ) • • • ❛ 𝙅𝙪𝙙𝙜𝙚, 𝙅𝙪𝙧𝙮 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙀𝙭𝙚𝙘𝙪𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣𝙚𝙧.❜



Sitting there, Abel turned his anger toward Kirean. He hadn't meant to turn it against Miguel but he had. Abel didn't understand the point of the questions. He turned his attention onto Miguel who responded. Abel wasn't surprised by his questions. Indeed what sane person flew across the country to check on someone they barely cared for. However, that was merely a lie.

The reason Abel had been previously mad at Miguel about the thought of being his boyfriend was because he'd already belonged to Kirean. He thought Miguel had no right to think of leaving Kirean for him. Even now, he knew he wasn't a good choice though still showed more respect to Miguel than Kirean did.

Abel knew he could only be fair if they were all going to lie their emotions out for each other. He wasn't exactly thrilled by the situation or audience. ”And if I said I love you, would that make you feel better?” Abel questioned with harsh words however those were the truth. He loved Miguel, seeing him leave had those years ago had crushed him but he understood. Abel couldn't make Miguel happy; it was why he pushed him away with such thoughts.

 

[Pure Acid Dreamer]

Jakob always had an inkling that there was something Abel was not telling him. Every time he got closer to him, he felt guilty for having these feelings. Even worse, he knew how much it upset Kieran and how unfair he was being towards him. Still his heart ached and he didn't know what to do about it. He didn't want to give up one just so he could have the other. On the other hand, he wasn't sure if either man would even want him if he said that he wanted them both. Kieran had asked him once if he could be monogamous, and he supposed now he was finding his correct answer. Between the two of them, the simple answer was no.

When Abel questioned him, Jakob couldn't help wanting to know the truth. He had already laid his heart for both Kieran and Abel, and had gotten one response already. Now seemed a good time as any to learn the truth once and for all. When the male spoke, his cheeks burned at the admission. For a fleeting moment he felt happy. He finally knew the truth. At the same time though, he a bit angry at him from hiding it. Jakob couldn't say for sure that something would have happened, but he was convinced that Abel had known his own feelings long before he said anything. "That depends." he replied, doing his best to keep his own attitude in check. "Are you going to disappear like Kieran did? Are you going to make me choose between the two of you? Cause I won't do it. You can't make me."

Jakob saw no reason he couldn't be with both of them. He was more or less doing it before without anyone's permission. Making him choose wouldn't make him happy, nor would he forget his feelings for the one he let go. If he was being a brat, fine. If he was being selfish, that was already well established at this point. He couldn't help the way that he felt and he wouldn't apologize for it either.

 

[xDarkWinterx]

⋮ ۩ ) • • • ❛ 𝙅𝙪𝙙𝙜𝙚, 𝙅𝙪𝙧𝙮 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙀𝙭𝙚𝙘𝙪𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣𝙚𝙧.❜



Kirean wasn't asking for monogamy. He already knew such things could never happen. While he wanted Miguel to himself, he couldn't cage him if he wanted to keep him. Kirean knew that early on even if it didn't previously help. He wasn't going to ask such demands from Miguel, especially knowing it couldn't be done. Kirean though would however keep to his own preference for monogamy. He wouldn't cheat on Miguel as he never had.

By telling the truth, he saw nothing good from it. Abel didn't think it would change anything. He probably wouldn't understand why Miguel was mad at him for keeping his thoughts private. Abel listened as Miguel soon responded. He found his words amusing and almost laughable to him. ”Have I ever made you choose?” Abel commented as if he'd ever done such a thing to Miguel.

 

[Pure Acid Dreamer]

As much as he loved Kieran, even for him he couldn't stay monogamous. He couldn't promise that he would never see Abel again, let alone sleep with him. Jakob had tried to ignore his feelings and stay away from the man. But any time something went bad, Abel was the first person he thought. He was the first person he knew to make him feel better, the first he wanted to talk to. He had always been there for him, and Jakob naturally couldn't help falling for him the same way he fell for Kieran. He didn't mind if either Kieran or Abel weren't monogamous to him as well. After all, it was only since he was tied exclusively to either of them. But he was also happy they both wanted to keep things as before.

He couldn't help feeling a little mad for Abel not telling him sooner. Mostly because of the miscommunication it brought between them. Maybe if Abel had opened up just a little to him, they too would not have fought as much. But there, was nothing he could do about it now. Jakob questioned the male again, wanting to know where he stood with this truth now laid out. He didn't want Abel to disappear the way Kieran did, and he also didn't want him to make him choose. Though he was sure he wouldn't. His blush darkened as the male lightly teased him as he pouted and shook his head. Wiping at his face, it had mostly dried from his little tantrum. Jakob looked between the two men. He didn't know how to go forward from here. He'd never been in this sort of situation, let a relationship. Now that they had found some kind of peace he didn't want to ruin it by saying something stupid.

 

[xDarkWinterx]

⋮ ۩ ) • • • ❛ 𝙅𝙪𝙙𝙜𝙚, 𝙅𝙪𝙧𝙮 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙀𝙭𝙚𝙘𝙪𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣𝙚𝙧.❜



While Kirean could remain monogamous, the same couldn't be said about Abel. He needed an outlet, one he had never used on Miguel. Abel enjoyed his time with Miguel in bed though sometimes he needed more. He couldn't promise to be wholeheartedly Miguel's nor would he expect the same of him. Abel didn't know what kind of relationship they could have. He knew Miguel wanted more but he wasn't sure if he could oblige. Abel wasn't good at relationships though he didn't think there's needed titles.

He had no desire to keep Kirean and Miguel apart. Abel probably couldn't if he tried nor did he think it would work in the reverse. He couldn't help but tease Miguel for his question. Abel watched as Miguel simply shook his head but didn't respond as he blushed.

Silence seemed to take over again for all of them. Luckily as they were soon greeted by their waitress who brought their food along with Kieran's who ordered a veggie omelet figuring he wasn't going to leave the table. She even brought a coffee pot to refill drinks and check if they needed anything else.

 

[Pure Acid Dreamer]

Jakob wasn't going to ask to be Abel's one and only. He knew it wasn't possible the same way he couldn't stay true to Kieran. He understood that there were things he either would not or simply could not give to Abel. Jakob had been willing to try some things with him in the past, but there was a lot he was still too timid to even attempt to think about doing with him. He was glad that Abel accepted his more mild preferences and respected his boundaries. He didn't know how long this would last, if at all, so he didn't ask for titles of any sort. Jakob just wanted to stay with him for as long as he could. If Abel ever grew bored of him, then so be it. He would not force him to stay where he did not want to be.

After giving a more silent answer to Abel's question, a hush fell among them once more. Though unlike before, it wasn't nearly as uncomfortable. Jakob felt like they had been able to get at least some of their problems squared away. Though there were probably more conversations to be had later. Now that Kieran was calmer, he thought about inviting him back with them after breakfast. Or if that was too much, then going over to his hotel room instead. He didn't know about Kieran, but he wasn't quite ready to see him off just yet.

As he sat there contemplating his options, their server returned with a full tray. Jakob, again wiped at his face. He was sure he looked awful but he tried not to let it bother him too much. Instead, he smiled politely and thanked the waitress as his plate was set down before him. He glanced to see that Kieran's own food had been brought and was happy that he would be joining them for breakfast. When asked for anything else, he politely declined and turned his attention to his food. Unwrapping his utensils, he went about smearing his waffles in butter and soon drowning them in syrup. Cutting off a piece, he popped it into his mouth as he glanced across the table. He hoped things went a bit better for them from here on.

 

[xDarkWinterx]

⋮ ۩ ) • • • ❛ 𝙅𝙪𝙙𝙜𝙚, 𝙅𝙪𝙧𝙮 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙀𝙭𝙚𝙘𝙪𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣𝙚𝙧.❜



Kirean had no plans for after breakfast. He wasn't familiar with the city he was in. Kirean had hardly left the United States before. He'd been to other states although. Kirean could easily Google some sites to see with his phone to entertain himself though that sounded boring especially by himself.

It would have been awkward for Kirean to return to his table just to eat his breakfast by himself. He thanked the waitresses as she set his food down along with refilling his coffee cup. Abel didn't need anything either. He took a sip from his freshly filled cup carefully. Abel grabbed his silverware unwrapping them from the napkin. He glanced to see Miguel slathering his waffles in butter. Abel wasn't a fan of such customary practice. He poured some syrup over his pancakes and started to cut into them. Abel took a bit as he settled in to eat his breakfast.

 

[Pure Acid Dreamer]

While awkward he would not have blamed Kieran if he wanted to go back to his own table. After all, there was a lot to digest from their conversation. Kieran had grown awfully quiet after Abel interjected himself into the conversation. He wanted to know what else he might be thinking, but it could wait. As their breakfast arrived and their drinks refilled, Jakob concentrated on his own plate, soon taking a bite. He glanced across the table. Abel had already started in on his own pancakes while Kieran cut into his omelet.

While the three of them ate in silence, the bistro around them had grown a bit more noisy. He supposed with all their commotion over, the other patrons had gone back to their own conversations. Jakob was a little embarrassed for having caused such a scene. Then again, it wasn't as though he had planned their whole argument. While he had thought of speaking to him in public, he had imagined somewhere else like a park. Not a small, intimate restaurant with twenty extra eyes and ears on them. But there was nothing to do about it, it was done.

After some minutes had passed and Jakob had eaten a good chunk of his first waffle, he glanced again toward Kieran. Beneath the table, he lightly tapped his foot against Kieran's own. He waited a moment to see if the male would acknowledge him. "I was just wondering what you're doing after breakfast." he said softly. "Was there anything else you wanted to ask or get caught up on?"

 

[xDarkWinterx]

⋮ ۩ ) • • • ❛ 𝙅𝙪𝙙𝙜𝙚, 𝙅𝙪𝙧𝙮 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙀𝙭𝙚𝙘𝙪𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣𝙚𝙧.❜



Abel hadn't meant to cause a scene though knew it could happen. He had just wanted the conversation between Kirean and Miguel to get over. Abel could have easily ignored Kirean though he knew if he did Kirean wouldn't be ignored. He found it amusing as the sounds of those around them returned to normal. Abel found it rude, that a scene could cause such silence then return to normal. He found it pathetic though it was their own fault by having this conversation in public.

As they sat there, they'd gone quiet and started on their own meals. Kirean unrolled his utensils and started to cut into his veggie omelet. He started to eat it, grabbing the small cup of salsa it came with and pouring it over the omelet. Kirean soon felt a tap on his foot, finding it amusing. He glanced up from his plate to look at Miguel.

Kirean listened as Miguel questioned him. He shrugged lightly, ”Not sure…Why did you have something in mind?” Kirean asked, teasing Miguel in return as he smiled at him.

 

[Pure Acid Dreamer]

He didn’t blame either of them for getting heated during their conversation. Jakob was just as guilty for being loud and drawing any unwanted attention. With the normal amount of noise returned to the room, he felt a little calmer than before. Though he still worried how they might proceed. Jakob continued to eat his breakfast before deciding to ask. Lightly tapping Kieran, he got his attention.

He watched the man raise his head from his plate and was surprised by his teasing. Jakob missed being teased by Kieran. He recalled their playful banters. While similar to the ones he had with Abel, they had their own charm as well. Not wanting to come off as expecting too much, Jakob gave him a one shoulder shrug. ”I just figured that if you still had questions or anything else you wanted to say, we could go back to your place after breakfast. I’m assuming you’re staying somewhere in the area?” he replied.

 

[xDarkWinterx]

⋮ ۩ ) • • • ❛ 𝙅𝙪𝙙𝙜𝙚, 𝙅𝙪𝙧𝙮 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙀𝙭𝙚𝙘𝙪𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣𝙚𝙧.❜



Kirean couldn't help but tease Miguel in return. He was growing comfortable and happy that their conversation had gone well. Kirean too had missed teasing Miguel. He had found it so easy, especially when the question was so blunt. Kirean was amused by it. He listened as Miguel responded. Kirean nodded, indeed he was staying at a hotel nearby. ”Sure, we can go back to my hotel. It's just down the block.” He responded as he took a sip from his coffee and continued eating.