⎾ MOROSIS ⏌

[xDarkWinterx]

There was plenty of time to talk once they were done. As much as he would like to discuss things, he felt this was more priority. Kieran watched as Miguel road him hard. He c**k throbbing inside Miguel's a**. Kieran knew they both were unlikely to last long. Already he was feeling ready to c**. He could no longer keep his voice down as he groaned. Kieran cussed beneath his breath as well. It wasn't long before he soon felt Miguel grip his knee. He held onto Miguel's hips as he pressed down hard against his c**k filling himself up. Kieran soon felt Miguel's hand drag down his chest, nails digging in. He felt Miguel tighten around his c**k causing him to give in. Kieran gripped Miguel's hips hard, he knew he was going to c** but had promised not to c** inside Miguel. He watched as Miguel gave in to his body, cumming between them. Kieran took a second for Miguel to finish. He grabbed Miguel by the hips pulling him off his c**k. Kieran pulled him forward as he reached behind Miguel to grab his own c**k to finish himself off as he came over his hand and Miguel's back. Once he finished he returned his attention to Miguel. Kieran kissed Miguel against his lips softly as he came down from his orgasm.

 

[Pure Acid Dreamer]

Jakob hoped that once they were they would talk. He could wait until they finished and he knew personally that itself would not last long. He was already close and had been for awhile now. He rode the male until he could no more. He heard Kieran groaning right along with him, his voice growing surprisingly louder. It was kind of cute. He had never heard Kieran be this loud before. Jakob soon came, his grip on Kieran's knee lessened as he sat there panting. He felt the males hands on his hips gripping tightly. Before he was able to fully recover, he was lifted off the males c**k. He had nearly forgotten about asking him not to c** inside him. He leaned against the male, careful not to get anything on his clothes, though he doubted Kieran would have minded. He watched the male jerk himself to completion, feeling his warm seed spraying against his back. Jakob turned his attention back to Kieran, he relaxed as the male kissed him. He kissed back softly, stealing a second kiss before pulling away. Sighing, Jakob sat back in his lap once more. He removed his hand from beneath his shirt as he slowly relaxed.

 

[xDarkWinterx]

Kieran didn't care if he got dirty. It was too be expected. He could wash his clothes later. Kieran finished as he held onto Miguel. He kissed him soon feeling him pull back after a second kiss. Kieran relaxed back against the seat. He felt Miguel's hand slip away from his shirt. Kieran watched Miguel as he too came down from his orgasm. His hands gripped Miguel's waist lightly. He could see Miguel's mind was spinning but he worried about his thoughts. Kieran didn't want to worry him either with his own thoughts.

 

[Pure Acid Dreamer]

Slowly his breath returned to normal. Like Kieran, he was coming down from orgasm and settling in to a moment of peace. He removed his hand from his chest as he sat back in his lap. Kieran's hands continued to hold him while he sat there. It was true, he was thinking, but none of his thoughts were negative. At least to him they weren't. He simply wanted to know what Kieran was thinking about. He didn't care if he thought it was something he wouldn't want to hear. He wanted to know. Jakob stared at the male a minute more before breaking their silence. "So...are you going to tell me what's on your mind? Or do I have to guess?" he asked curiously. If Kieran's thoughts were anything like his own, he could handle it. Jakob had already run through a list scenarios twice while he was home-bound. He doubted the man's thoughts could be much more troubling than that.

 

[xDarkWinterx]

Kieran had to wonder if his own thoughts reflected Miguel's. He didn't know what he was thinking either. Kieran wondered how much longer they would have together. He couldn't promise Miguel to stay together if he killed Abel. Kieran knew though it was his job, one he worried about. He too was worried if Abel got his hands on Miguel again would he survive. Kieran watched Miguel as he seemed to debate what to say. He finally heard him speak. Kieran sighed softly pulling Miguel closer toward him as his arms locked around his waist. He held onto Miguel as he looked up at him. ”Just thinking about us and everything else.” Kieran spoke being vague about his response. He didn't want to voice all his thoughts.

 

[Pure Acid Dreamer]

In all his worrying, Jakob was surprised the male had yet to question his own thoughts. It wasn't as though he were trying to keep them to himself. While yes, Jakob did have his own secrets, he didn't mind talking with Kieran about these sorts of things. It would be better for them both to just say what they had to say rather than tiptoe around one another. After all, they didn't say it now who was to say they would have time again later. Jakob knew the risks when getting together with Kieran. It wasn't a permanent thing, there would be no happy endings, or anything close normal. He hated the idea of it all, but somehow he had grown attached to him. He liked spending time together and peaking behind that intimidating exterior.

After speaking, Jakob watched as the male sighed. He was almost immediately pulled closer. He thought of protesting, saying that he would only get dirty. But it seemed as though the male did not care. His hands rested against the males chest as he stared down at him. He felt his arms lock behind him, holding him in place. He didn't squirm or shy away. Soon the man spoke, it wasn't at all surprising that he was still holding back. "What about us?" he asked, raising an eyebrow. While he did want to know about the other half of Kieran's vague statement, he thought he might be more open to answering the first half of it as it somehow seemed easier. Like anything Kieran might have to say about him, he could handle it.

 

[xDarkWinterx]

His thoughts were nothing bad especially against Miguel. Kieran's thoughts were only for concern and his own fears. Holding onto Miguel he didn't care if he objected. Getting dirty didn't bother him that's what dry cleaning was for. Kieran watched Miguel as he processed his words. He smiled though it didn't reach his eyes. ”Nothing bad if that's what you're thinking… I'm just thinking about everything, the what ifs and probably just over analysing it all too.” Kieran responded as he leaned his head back against the seat but still kept his eyes on Miguel.

 

[Pure Acid Dreamer]

It didn't really matter if his thoughts him were kind or unkind. The only thing that mattered to him was that his thoughts were true. As the male held on to him, he knew he did not care. Though he thought that he should. It was bad enough that Jakob had become such a mess, there was no need for Kieran to become one as well. He spoke, choosing carefully which to question first. Kieran smiled like he was amused by it, but he noticed how it seemed a bit off. It wasn't his usual smile. Jakob listened as the male spoke, not fully believing his words to be true. Like his smile, his words seemed off too. He watched the male leaned his head back, his piercing eyes staring back at him. Jakob shook his head a bit. "Then if it's nothing bad, why won't you tell me? Stop overthinking and just complain a little." he said, whining only a little. Acting like a child wasn't going to help him, but he couldn't help himself. He wanted to be able to talk about anything with Kieran. That wasn't going to happen if he couldn't even share his own thoughts or feelings.

 

[xDarkWinterx]

Kieran knew that not being honest with Miguel wasn't going to help things. He couldn't help his anxieties and fears. Kieran knew that they probably reflected Miguel's as well. He watched Miguel as he continued to hold onto him. Kieran listened Miguel spoke whining at him. He pulled a hand from around Miguel, he reached up to cup his cheek. Kieran found it cute to see Miguel whine. Any other person he was likely to be annoyed by it. ” Because if I think about it or talk about it, then it will only happen...I like you but I'm worried about how long before that changes.” Kieran spoke honestly, he didn't want to grow to hate Miguel. He however wasn't making promises not to do so.

 

[Pure Acid Dreamer]

All he wanted was to know Kieran's true thoughts and feelings. It wasn't like he was asking for his heart or a proclamation of love. He understand have fears, doubts, and maybe even some anxiety. That didn't stop him from wanting to spend time with Kieran. Jakob remained close to the male after being pulled. He stared down at the male as he spoke, whining only slightly. He sat there watching him. Kieran's hand cupped his cheek, his expression softened. He listened as the male spoke again. His words didn't make him feel any better. Jakob looked down at the space between them, drawing in his lower lip as he bit it slightly. In a way, what he was saying didn't seem fair. "And just what exactly is going to happen?" he asked, still not looking at the male. "If you like me then why do things have to change?" Jakob knew what he was saying must sound childish. But they were his true feelings. He didn't want to be hated for only following his orders.

 

[xDarkWinterx]

There wasn't a lot he could say or do to make Miguel feel better. He was already trusting him but enough to hate him. Kieran knew it wasn't Miguel's fault that he was supposed to kill Abel. He didn't blame him either. If anything he wished they could have met in better circumstances. Kieran watched as Miguel dropped his head. He took note of him biting his lip. Kieran listened as Miguel spoke questioning him but not looking at him still. He knew speaking his mind was only seeming to hurt Miguel, which wasn't his intention. Kieran slipped a hand up towards Miguel's chin, drawing his face up to look at him. ”I don't want things to change, I like them as they are as well.” He spoke watching Miguel as he sat there.

 

[Pure Acid Dreamer]

The thought of one day being hated by Kieran was one he didn't like to think about. While he may have chose to be a hired killer, the victims were never his choice. He didn't kill for sport, only cash. He didn't collect trophies, he didn't feel any particular way when the steel of his knife cut the skin, or while pulling back a trigger. Yes, he was a killer, and yes he could be a bit of a stalker. But it was all for the sake of his work. When he took on the job to hunt for Abel, he wasn't expecting to find Kieran. Things were just getting started and already he felt like he was losing him. He sat there looking at the same between them as he spoke. He could feel Kieran's eyes watching him intensely before gently moving his hand to his chin, and making him look up. Jakob met the males gaze, the look in his eyes seeming to reflect exactly what he felt. Jakob listened as he spoke. He soon sighed and merely nodded his head as he looked away again. He didn't know what else he could. He felt like he had gotten Kieran's hopes up to try and make this into something better than it was. And already it was like the man was just waiting to be disappointed by his future actions. A part of him wanted to sit here and be sad about the possibility of their future break-up. While the other half knew he had only himself to blame...he wondered if asking Kieran to go out with him was such a good idea after all.

 

[xDarkWinterx]

It wasn’t Miguel’s fault, nor did he think it was. If anything, Kieran didn’t want to lose Miguel. He knew that voicing his opinion was only seeming to hurt him. That was not what he had been trying to do. If anything, he was trying not to. Kieran watched Miguel as he sat there. He raised his head to look at him, as he spoke. Kieran could see the defeated look on his face, before he looked way. He wished he never opened his mouth, or felt anything right at this moment. Kieran was ruining everything and only hurting Miguel. He sighed softly but mostly to himself. Kieran withdrew his hand from Miguel’s face letting it fall back to his side. ”Talk to me, don’t ignore me.” He spoke softly as he sat there waiting for Miguel to acknowledge him. Kieran could tolerate being ignored by anyone else, but not Miguel.

 

[Pure Acid Dreamer]

Jakob hated the idea of having to give up on Kieran. He didn't blame him for voicing his opinions. It was something that needed to be said. How he felt after hearing them was his own fault and had nothing to do with Kieran. He knew Kieran had not meant to hurt him, and he never did. Jakob couldn't help wanting to hide. The look on his face must have been a terrible one as Kieran soon released his face. He heard Kieran sigh as he sat there, a silence soon falling between them. They both sat quietly for a few minutes. Kieran was the first to break the silence. His voice was so soft and almost desperate. Slipping his arms up, he looped them around Kieran's neck, and leaned his head against his shoulder. "I'm not ignoring you." he replied honestly. He closed his eyes, thinking about how to properly word his next statement. "When you say that you might end up hating me, somehow it feels like I led you on. Even though that was never my intention."

 

[xDarkWinterx]

Being led on was not what had happened between them. If anything he had lead Miguel on. He didn’t want to stop and talk to him in the club. Kieran could have simply ignored him, or walked away. He didn’t want to try to stop him or protect him from Abel either. Kieran only had himself to blame. He wanted Miguel, even if it meant breaking down his own walls. Kieran couldn’t help his need to talk, though he wished he hadn’t. He would have much preferred to just let things happen, instead of talking. Kieran sat there questioning Miguel, unsure if he would respond. He soon felt Miguel slip his arms around his neck and come closer. Kieran relaxed Miguel leaned his head on his shoulder. He held onto Miguel relaxing as he sat there. Kieran listened as Miguel spoke, blaming himself. He found it amusing but didn’t laugh just let him continue to speak. ”How did you lead me on?” Kieran asked curiously, as he held onto Miguel. He wanted to be with Miguel, he liked him, if anything he didn’t want to hate him. Kieran might for a while, but eventually he could forgive him.