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My life has been really hard. I was alone and miseradel. my friends and family were there but i really didin't feel it. That's what caused me to do what i did. It was a good thing my brother was there to save me. i really look up to him for that.
I was having a bad week, on Monday,I found out my parents were getting a divorece. On Tuesday, I hear my by best friend was kissing my boyfriend behind my back. Wednesday, I got raped by a guy that eats out of trash cans for a living. thursday, the doctor called explaning to me that the test results were in from earlier that mornig, and that i was pregnate. on friday i had enough, all this week all my fears came to lofe. I was readyto go, I was sick of life. When i got home from school no one was there.i ran to the restroom, grabbed my father's razor. took out the blade. I was so scared and sat in a little corner of the restroom. I looked at my wrist and started scraping it with the blade. In less then a minute my wrist started to bleed, i saw the blood running down the palm og my hand, tears started to fall. My brother just so happend to drop by for a visit. He saw the house quiet and started calling my name. Just then he heard my screams of fustration. He followed the screams to the restroom. He rushed in and saw me half dead, he grabed the phone and called an ambulans.He tore a piece of cloth from a rag and tied it around my torn open wrist.
He stayed whit me until the end.

Divorce is a difficult thing for any teenager to go through. So it is understandable that you would be upset or torn on that issue. At the same time a real friend is not someone who kisses on your boyfriend without coming clean, appologizing, and earning your trust again. Although in truth, a good friend would not have done that to begin with. Thosands of people, young women and men alike, are raped on a daily basis. It is unfortunate that you fell amongst the numbers who have come to have such a bad experience. To find out you are pregnant, yes...that surely must have come as a blow. Then...at the same time, there are others who cannot even have children who desire such. There are also those who are rapped and keep the child that they have on account of such a misfortune and love it as if indeed, it were one made in an act of love.

Life right now, I could understand being difficult for you. However, it is the heart that is scarred and dares to live again that is truly an object of beauty. Life gets complicated, and I will not lie to you...some situations may seem almost impossible to get through. However, when in a race...do you just stop half way through and quit? Or do you race to the finish?

Keep your chin up. You CAN get through this!

but the child is in theory a living creature and can you just go and kill something that easily?

Woow. That's aintense week. Man, I feel bad for you. Also sorry but I don't really beleive in abortion, but do report the rape. And also slap your boyfriend and break up with him. He deserves it! No girl should go through with that week.

but does that mean that its really right to kill a unborn child?

The pregnancy could not have been from the rape, you can not detect a pregnancy in any way, shape or form the day after the sex act.

There's also more of a chance of it being a bad person..It's living in a womens body. Therefore women have every right of what to do with it.

Usually, I disagree with abortions. But in this case, I think it would be a good idea. Now maybe if she had purposely opened her legs, then I'd say deal with it, but rape has it's ways out.