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life is going really horribly, should b used to this by now, but i think i can handle it for a bit, just need to meditate and let things out. my neck is absolutly killing me, and my left collar bone is outa place, they move on me...it really hurts for some reason and i cant get it back in place. my bf, well nm im not going to mention that issue because i dont need to cry again this morning. ppl i was closer then ne1 are gone, basicly gone, i have new ones, i love them, but y cant i have all of them being close... was really stupid yesterday, but not really because you dont put that up there and expect me to react to it when im never mentioned, like im supposed to be a secret. yea im talked about all the time, but you just dont show it online then put a girls name up and call her yours... i think i have to go to the docs today or tomorrow then on the 21st or 22 second, gotta love shots, but its b control, and its a hell of alot easier then ppills andannoying patches.
my neices have become whores...16 andf having sex with a 19 yr old bf...2 droped outa school, just wonderful children, life sucks crap. thats grose, what if theres peanuts or corn, im gonna make myself get sick here.
i miss some of my old friends, ppll just let you push them away, im wird like that, i push ppl away...i dont even know im doing it, not till its too late. i hate whining but im doing a very good job of it.
i dunno if i should move on or not... love is so complicated... hating is so much easier.
i hope cat wakes up soon, i need her to make me happy, i need to shower too, yay. least thats a good thing, so relaxin. looks like its going to storm all day like yesterday, damn great lakes, but i love storms so why am i complaining? really loud ones yesterday, love that, cat was scared but shes tough, got over it. shes braver then me, well in most things im sure in the future. for one thing clowns scare me lol, wahhhhh, lol, ew and cockroaches, beatles,centpeads, millopeeds, a ton other bugs. ahh shivers, goose bumps, damn u bugs.
i think i stoped growing in grade 8, im short, but ive seen shorter, id be a midget, (ones that are equally proportioned just liler) if i was an half inch shorter. yay for being 5ft11 or am i 5 ft 11 and a half...i wonder...
my step and father scare the hell outta me, for two different reasons, not same i at least like my step mom, i have to go there to see david my lil bro cuz i loves him. my sister, whors 37 i think purposly got pregnant...which is fun cuz she cant handle money and be responsible to save her life. maybe she will change, hopefully, but shes being a royal b***h. everyone says oh kate (my older full blood sister not even a year older then me) what a beautiful woman uve become, wow im so proud, while im sitting right there and never got such a greeting, how fun. my mom threatens me everyday, but i love her, she rescued me from my dad, so i love her no matter what.
i hope it doesnt get humid out, wow what a shitty day...i bitched at caden, but i loves him like a best friend,, he's really a great guy, i miss david so much, david my friend, i worry cuz hes like me, but i worry bout caden too, wish i could protect them both from pain. tried that with brian, ended horribly...tho he was my ex and i still loved him so theres a diff pluss other complicated things.
i love my daughter, best thing to happen to me, shes the light of my life, so beautiful, and smart, shes getting chubby, thats our fault, mostly micki my preg sister cuz she gives her so much junk food...and fast food...but its been hectic, not enough time and just so many issues to cope with....did you know a killer whale is just a big dolphin, well porpus?? interesting.
im going on so i might as well end it now. thx for reading bout my strange life.
mew
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 lil_qt_cat1 · Wed May 16, 2007 @ 12:02pm · 0 Comments |
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