Ive never been this depressed before. My bestest guy friend is fading away from my life and I cant stop it. I know he hates my guts and I know what he thinks im dong but its not true and he wont believe me! Ive never felt this bad and never been this close to suicide. I wish I could do something, but every time I try to talk to him about it he acts like its no big deal. It breaks my heart. He doesnt even joke around with me anymore. All play fights turn serious and I end up hurt emotionally or physically. What happened to the days when he said he couldnt hurt me? Why have those days dissappeared? I'd do anything to get those days back. Why is he erasing me from his life? I feel replaced. And its not just with him, its with all my friends. I used to know all kinds of things. But nobody talks to me anymore. Its like im invisible. Ive been invisible my whole life and I dont like it! I just wish once someomne would notice me and keep noticing me no matter what. *Sigh* I guess there's nothing I can do about it.
K a y l a s a u r o u s · Mon Jun 11, 2007 @ 10:32pm · 5 Comments |