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I read some manga earlier today. I finish out the Imadoki series. Reading it really made me miss Wade.. The love triangle in it reminded me of my own. XP Yoji reminded me of Jake, and Koki reminds me of Wade. I couldn't help myself, but I cried. It's annoying.. because I seem to be crying a lot. I have such a deep, empty pain in my heart and I feel like I need to cry.. So I do.. but the feeling never goes away. Maybe I shouldn't be so upset about my situation.. and not being able to see Wade.. I bet Wade is taking it a lot better then I am XP.
It's been raining a lot. Ever since Wade was arrested it seems the sky has been crying with me. Odd to say, but I feel that way. Today the sky was amazing.. My family went out to Izzy's and drug me along. On the car ride I was looking out the window and I was in awe. I hope this weather continues..
Well.. tomorrows school. How pleasent.. another day of knowing Wades just a wall away from me and I can't go into the library and see him.. or he's somewhere in the halls and if I see him, I have to try to avoid looking at him.
I feel like Wade died.. when the cops told me he was arrested I felt like it was them telling me Wade got in a car crash, or killed himself.. maybe even murdered. I saw Wade for a split second while passing him in the commons at lunch one day. My heart skipped a beat. It was like seeing someone that died, alive again. Wade was looking down/away from me. I wanted to cry so bad.. I got extremely angry with the cops.. I, from the begining of them questioning me, had an angry tone. They kept telling me things that made me wanna jump over the table and strangle one of them. xp One cop said "You aren't thinking of hurting yourself are you?" and I looked up at him and glared and said "Well your not helping.." He seemed a little shocked by my reply. He looked at me for alittle but, then left the room lol.
It feels so good to rant..

I have a continued version of this in my livejournal thing. A select few know what my livejournal name is.. so yea.. I just want to have a version of the rant on here as well.