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Has anyone out there trusted anyone so much but then was let flat down by them? Well earier I wrote about Dustin right. Well he was gone to a drum and bugle core. camp. And I just found out that he and a couple of his friends snuck out and got drunk. They're in the middle of finals so their groups have to decided whether to kick them out or let them stay. Gosh I can't imagine him getting drunk. It's not like we are related or ever went out or anything but he was just like my older brother! I looked up to him more than my own DAD! So now my heart feels like it dropped a million miles and yea it just really hurts right now. I almost feel like crying and for those that know me for real know that I don't cry. So why do I feel like it right now. It's hard to keep back the tears right now. I am just so wowed I have no idea what to do. I mean I knew last night but today it's really hit me. cry cry cry crying crying