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My thoughts, random bits and bobs, shall enter here...
My Dark side
What no one seems to realise when they read my profile, is that I have a dark history behind it, and a very dark soul almost... in fact, if it wasn't for those shreads of happiness on my profile page and my friends and family, I'd probably be the last person you'd want to speak to on a rainy day...
Reasons I have a secret dark side:
. Both my parents are... not around anymore... and not in a sarcastic sense, they're actually gone, so I live with my grandparents.
. I'm fed up of boys using me until a better 'booty call' comes along.
. My friends are fed up with my attitude.
. My grandparents dissaprove of my lack of love
. My depression gets others depressed.
. I hate being so short, and needing a retainer and glasses.
. The one person I feel a truelly love... I can never have.

There... now you know my dark side... there's alot worse, some of the thoughts I can have are extremly morbid... I think the one I can say is... I once said to myself, 'If I could die in anyway, I'd die at the hands of Jigsaw' That's how depressed I can get... that I'd want to die a painful, torturous death...

However, I'm going to try my very hardest to be happy and face my dark side, and be more like my good side... it's just so sad that my good side is so easily crushed by my dark side...

I have one piece of advice for anyone who ever feels like me: Don't hide it away! No matter how embarressing or upsetting it is, tell someone about it, have a very good cry, and I promise you, every time you do this, you will always feel better... I feel ten times better having typed all this up now.

Arigatou to everyone

Songstress910/Salanica/Sarah






User Comments: [3]
RigorinLineraInagratar
Community Member





Sun Jan 06, 2008 @ 03:44am


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Sammieh
Community Member





Sun Feb 03, 2008 @ 07:44pm


Yer not the only one with a dark side.


Oshun Phoenix
Community Member





Wed Feb 20, 2008 @ 11:52pm


I just saw your avi in the V-Day event and checked out your profile. Hope that's cool! And I know exactly how you feel. I'm 22, and that was practically my teenage years, but don't worry. It gets much better after that. (I wouldn't want to be a teenager again even if someone payed me...unless things changed.) You'll be happy soon. Just hang on. heart


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