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I've been bi-sexual since kindergarten.

I have no love interest in any of my friends.

When I'm taken by a boy, all the kids I used to have a crush on I feel apathetic towards.

I locked away my tears because I vowed I would never cry over a guy--
and that happened because my boyfriend broke up with me.

I'm emotionally unstable.

I get really bad PMS.

Ex-boyfriends--for me--suck.

I've changed a lot since I moved in with my dad--

I feel bad that
I neglect
to see my mother,

Theres always a 'but'
In these situations;
Which is, she neglected me
before I even had
the chance to neglect her first.


I believe
my
mother
doesn't
really
love
me, but only does what a mother is 'supposed' to do.

I believe my mom only wants the child support.

Sometimes when some one is in my life for a short period of time--
I cherish the time with them too much--and
get
emotionally attached.

I
wear
my heart
on
my
hand,
but
the
thing
is
I'm
always
loyal
to
the
person
I'm
in
love
with.

I'd
NEVER
break a heart, because I
know how it feels.

I try to avoid hurting people unless I hate them or I can help it.

I try to be religious, but like most teenagers my mind wanders and I sin.
'What if theres no god?' 'There's a reason for everything right?' 'They say the world was made by the combination of particles?' 'Where did the particles come from?'

Sometimes I think
life is a
dream and I'm nothing but a
[ M A R I O N N E T T E ] in a
puppet show.

I usually like it
when some one calls me a b***h
whore, a*****e, mean person,
Heartless, demon, devil spawn,
But when my Boyfriend calls me mean:
I get hurt for once.