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OUCHIE! I'm glad I don't have anything like that. My dad is the mean one in the family and he always wins the fight because he's almost always right, so there's no need to argue 3nodding . I'm sorry to hear that ur not having that great of a week either! *runs up to u and hugs* now we can be emo together... emo

*hugs* I am not normally emo, but lately I'm finding it harder not to be emo Hopefully life will cheer up soon.

Oh Kairi! I'm so sorry! *huggles* I feel emo a lot too lately. And i've had thoughts of suicide and painic attacks where i hypervenalate so i know how u feel! Don't worry! I promise not to kill myself! Anyways! Back to u! Yah me and my mom used to fight a lot but I don't live with my dad. Or my mom but she always visits. She stopped fightin with me after she FINALLY had my last lil brother, Tate. She has her tubes tied now. Um....well idk what to say. I would say that u should talk to her but i've tried that solution and it never works. *lightbulb* Why don't u write a letter tellin her all this even the cutting thing then put it on her pillow or slip it under her bedroom door? That way she can think about what you've said and she can't yell @ u rite after u say it or while u say it. Does that help any? I'm really sorry Kairi. emo

I don't know how well that would work. Knowing her it would probably make things worse. Almost everything I say to her alway gets mis-interpreted into something completely different that I didn't even say. I didn't really fight with her like I do now till about a few years ago. One thanksgiving she just exploded, like she just reached the end of her rope. She blew up at my dad. And for some reason she yelled at me too, and for a sec I swear she thought I was my dad. It was really scary. Another weird thing is that whenever my parents do fight it's almost like I'm the trigger that starts it. I don't know why that is, but I wish they would just keep me out of it. I'm tired of feeling like crap, I'm only 14, I'm not supposed to be dealing with THEIR problems.

sorry kairi. i don't know wat else to tell u. emo emo

Me either, I just hope everything gets better soon. The current vid on my profile strangely fits how I was feeling a few days ago and sort of fits what I was saying. Which is why I put it there I guess, IDK.

K. I'll look @ it before i have to get off.

Well, it's not so much the actually video as much as it is the song. But you'll get the basic idea.