By everything. I'm a little mad, little sad. My mom sits me down and to soften me up asks me how my drawing is doing. Asks about an entry form for an art contest I left lying around. (I'm going to enter two drawings, both charcoal, one of a bird and another of a person. I have yet to draw them. I will this weekend if I can get some good material to draw on. But if they don't come out well I'll just toss the whole contest idea. The prizes were 1st- $500 in art supplies, 2nd- $300 in supplies, and 3rd- $100 in supplies. I just wanted a shot at it. I like supplies Dx)
Then she confronted me about my astonishing English grade. It was a rather bad grade. I told her that I am working on it. I am turning in all of my work, focusing on due dates and upcoming projects, everything. But she said, "That's not enough. we're going to have to change your lifestlye to help you do better in school. Starting tomorrow, you're going to have limited computer time." And that just gets my rage going. "change my lifestyle." If there's one thing I hate hate hate to hear from people, it is when they comment on my "lifestyle." My lifestyle is my life and how I live it. It is me, essentially. It's like saying she wants to change me. And it makes me very angry that anyone thinks of me as needing to be changed. To me, it's like when someone walks up to you and says ,"You're uglystupidanoyingretarded." Any sort of hurtful comment someone could throw at you. And it hurts me more when my mother wants to change things that aren't connected to the problem. I'm being over sensitive, right? She's doing it so I'll get better grades and all, I know, but if I want my grades to change, I'll do it my way. I'll work for myself. I know what I did wrong and I will fix it. I don't want anyone else "changing my lifestyle." I mean really, it's insulting. Just leave me alone.
Oh, and also, I really hate this week.
 bittersweet93 · Thu Apr 03, 2008 @ 01:25am · 1 Comments |
